Love & Trust .

2010-03-28T22:28:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR.

& a photo of you ...

from the regards of ussssss ... :)

Great off day spent! Mahjong session with lovelys.

Thanks so much for acc me to play. Hehe.

And a nice dinner treat, all the best to you!

2010-03-22T15:18:00.003+08:00

JOANNE LOVES HER OFFDAY SO MUCH!

'CAUSE SHE GET TO ENJOY HERSELF TTM!

Teehee! I'm so excited yesterday that got to meet up with the girls last night.
Have been months since I last get to meet up with them, right?
Lol. They are busy like dontknow what. One with boyfriend, two with work ^^
Headed down to Andrea's chalet at the evening time. Had some chit chat session and TAPTAP gaming! Weett.
It's always feel good speaking to them, esp my two darling girls.
They're always my crapper!
I do hope we can meet up more often man.
Took lotsa pictures but it's all with them ;] Im camera-less last night.
(P/s: So, no photos yettttt.)
Ohyea, though it's yesterday but still.
HAPPY Eighteen BIRTHDAY ANDREA AHMA!
Remember? I know you since Primary till now! *double hearts*

Left there at ten & cab down to meet Buddy and ahhwee.
Chilling session under ahhwee house. Chat veryvery long uptill one plus am.
Woah, I tell you! Yesterday is so cool that we speak about Horoscope.
LOL. Fun I tell you.
Cheerup guys! We're all on the same boat x:
Hehe. *single heart* to you guys first . bleahs~
Kaykay. Leave there cause Bud's mum called.
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And today wake up super early cause I dontwant to make myself cant fall asleep tonight.
So, another nua day at home! :DD
Start work tomorrow again & chiong 5days!

Have a Universal day !

*HUGS*

2010-03-21T17:02:00.001+08:00

Weetss! Off day!
& I dont feel like typing already .
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There you gooo.

2010-03-19T00:58:00.003+08:00

I will thanks you alot if you could ...
Sing me a song now and let me get into sleep.

'Cause Im having early shift tomorrow at work and I needa wake up early in the morning 5.45am.
Thats super crazy for me to only sleep less than 5hours.
Ohman. Kill me.
*stab stab*
--
Alright, maybe Im just too excited to see the crowds tomorrow at USS!
Cheers for tomorrow & RAIN RAIN GO AWAYS!

2010-03-17T22:45:00.003+08:00

Okay, I'm so gonna complain after a so long break.
Urghhhhhhhhh! Super duper angry man.
Cant you just add another 100$ just for the sake for me.
Though Iknow it's very ridiculous that it for me lui.
But cant you just help meeee?! Bloody hell sad and angry man.
Told you everything whywhywhy. Then you say tomorrow then give me an answer.
I REALLY WISH YOU CAN GIVE ME A GOOD NEWS MAN!
I REALLY WANA STAY AT THIS TEAM, THEY'RE REALLY A GROUP OF LOVELYS TO ME NOWWWW!
Okay, Iknow I should not be emotional. But it's TRUTH!
Sigh. Helphelp.

But still, I didnt regret saying what last time myself.
I still believe, hard works count more.

Ohman! Alot of mine colleagues and myself too fall sick.
TAKECARE LOTS kayyy. Drink moremore water and rest well.
& you guys will see me back in work with a paika mood.
LOL.

UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE(USS) IS HAVING THEIR OFFICIAL OPENING TOMORROW, 18th MARCH 2010. DO GIVE US A VISIT WHEN YOU WANA HAVE A UNIVERSAL DAY. WE ASSURE YOU WILL ENJOY YOURSELF TO THE MAX! (Y)(Y)

THEY'RE JUST PART OF IT! *HUGS*

Dont feel good.

2009-11-26T21:30:00.001+08:00

Blogged in my Personal Blog instead today.
Just somethings that really make me feel uncomfortable.
No one will get to know this.

I want my gossip-kia lui!

:>

2009-11-23T20:10:00.002+08:00

Aye aye. I feel damn sorry for not updating these days even though I say that I will. But I failed. So yea, Im sorry. Maybe no one even read it hur. But still update for myself to shuang also happy. Hahahha!

Damn lots of things happen recently. Okay. Went Teoheng last thurday with Sist, ahling & yin, Brother & his wife, Ken & Randal came along. Went for Threading before that, oh-shit it's damn shuangggg! Wahhaah, but painful lui. Alright. That was the day that I said myself was the joke of the day due to video-taker! Asssss. Totally disgrace myself and peeps that saw my video thought I was drunk. So, go and think of it. How crazy I was man. Jialat sio.

Friday was nothing at all. Slack slack and just slack if I'm not wrong.

Yuppyup. And Saturday was another day of enjoyment. Met up with Val lady after work and went out together. Love her lui. She also one of my gossiper member already. Haha! You can see how KPO Im.
We went down Suntec IT-fair and walk around. Nothing much this time actually. But shockingly there's a Cosplay going on there. And so, we walk walk see see only.
Went to have Niwa Sushi afterwards for dinner before going down to Toapayoh.
Not bad but a China woman spoil our mood aye. Taoyan.
Mrt down Toapayoh afterward to check out about phone.
Sold my LG G900 off and got reserved myself Blackberry Curve! Yays! :>
Due to some personal reason I sold it off. But feedback for a phone is, a normal and easy phone.
Yep. From buying phone, me and Val get to know new friend :D
Winnie & Pamela (:
Cab back Tamp after that and find Jolene out at flea market.
Back to our own home afterward.

Yesterday, called Brother to drive me down Toapayoh to collect my phone. Weet-oh-weet. Sui aye my phone. First phone without flash ayee :] Then down to Sist's house after that 'cause having a dinner with her. Piang! Say till the dinner is damn boring lui. Falling asleep there and tired like siao. Reached home at 11plus.

And thats result to Today Im working like a zombie sio. Sleepy like crazy. Then I end work at around 11 today. Cant take it anymore and came home to sleep. But got giao qi lai at 2 for mj. Sibei shag. Lost lor ._.
Got the urge to eat mango pudding today but didnt D:
Sadd.

Okay, gonna set some things to my BB and off to sleep.
So freaking tired!

(p/s: I tried uploading the photos but failed. )

Weet-oh-weet.

2009-11-19T22:48:00.001+08:00

Yea! Have a damn great and enjoyable night with sisters and brothers just now.
But the time is just too late and I still have work early in the morning tomorrow. SO, I will blog about today , tomorrow.

But, oh damn it! Im the joke of the day -.-
Asssssssssss my Bye-Kia Sister.

I'm BACK !

2009-11-18T21:23:00.002+08:00

Im back to blogging. After so long of stop blogging at Public blog. I'm wonder if I still can blog whatever I want just like blogging at my Private blog. 'Cause all along this time, whenever I feel like blogging, I will only tend to blog there. Cause feeling too vexed last few months.

But I'm alright now :> Feeling much better after a long rest lui. Seriously, you should take a long break from blogger if you are feeling too boring or what. Hahaha. I love being ramdom recently.
I think I should update myself at blogger after such a long time of running away.
I guess most of my friend already stop reading my blog already. Hahaha.
COME BACK PEOPLES!

--

Stop nonsence already. Feels great cause I'm doing masks now (:
After a day out with my sisters and brother-in-law to East Coast and cycle.
Yea, cycle in the rain. No doubts. I pray hard I wont fall sick tomorrow. Because I have a vow with my sister that noone is going to pontent work tomorrow. Haha. If not, the pontent-kia will get it !

o.o
Im going for supper later on. Happyhappy!
Mummy called me out for it. Hehe.

Yep. I'm going to blog tomorrow I hope.
Hehehehees . 米修！米修！

2009-05-26T18:11:00.001+08:00

Everything is going to be mess up soon. I dont know what going to happen. I just want and expect everything to go smoothly. Things seems to be more and more complicated. AM I GOING TO TURN BACK TO KEEPING EVERY SORROWS WITH MYSELF AGAIN ?

Shit ass. Bitch me. Fuck it J.Lim !

2009-05-22T13:51:00.001+08:00

我的心好乱。

有没有人能让我或教我怎么做。

两个字形容我的心情：痛苦。

2009-05-20T19:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was really weird.
Went out early in the morning to salon at 800plus with grandma and aunt. Aunt snipped her hair short already! Like finally after telling me so long that she wanted to cut short her hair. Wahahhah. Then we cabbed down Tamp Mall afterwards and I went separate way with them and to find my friend. Slacked at Starbucks , chit chatting and waited for my Sister to reach. When we slack and speaks about our history, its truly a tough journey I walked down my life till now. Thinking weather do I really still have the chance to continue it long ahead. Hmmm.

After Sister came , bused down 201 and friend went off. Sister went to bought Pink F480. Haha. Something shock to share, I sold my SonyEricsson off and got myself a Pink F480. Cant really bear to sold off that phone but sigh. I think thats is my first step again? Heart was really pain when I press down the delete button for some things. Hais. Then bused back Tamp Mall and Sister went off to do her things while I went to meet up with Sister ling and lene with jiayi , yunhua, huijuan and shumei. Celebrated my two birthday girl birthday, within a blink of eyes, they turned 17! So fast. Hahaha.
Cut cake and both of the refused to take photo lor. Eyer.

After dinner went off and cab down East Coast to meet up with Brother , his wife and Xiang. Cha chan teng for awhile then I went down boat quay with xiang to find beverly at Chambers. Know this lady named Serene :) Nice lady though. Uptill one plus , Brother came down and find us then we brought that two person home, xiang and bev.
Afterward, we cab down east coast to meet up with friend at the pub named Resort there. Drink and play till this morning 5plus and reached home at 6.
Cant imagine I played till this morning man. First time.

Place i went yesterday : Salon - tampmall - 201 - tampmall - eastcoast - boat quay - eastcoast -home.
....

Worked tomorrow again ! :(

Sigh. Why am I always the one. Im sad. Only Sister know whats I speaking.
But Im glad you forgotten what happene, if not everythings might go wrong.

2009-05-11T22:02:00.002+08:00

我又哭了，心也开始痛了。

曾说会快乐的放下，但又心酸起了。

Finally, my room renovation is all done. Yes, DONE ! :D Feel really relieve now. No need to sleep on the floor anymore.

And days pass by so lonely and boring. My mood today is totally down. Sigh , I dont know why.

Dont wish to continue this post. Sorry.

2009-04-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

Ohoh. I get to blog today mannn. Miss me horhor, people. Say yesssssss :) Miss blogging out, but I was got time limit. Cause always using other people laptop. Will blog when my house is done then I get to use my laptop properlyyyy. And hmm, bought all my new stuffs in my room already. Yay-ness !

After everything is changed, my room turn newwwww :D:D:D Hahaha.
Wish to blog more but time limiting. So, see yar next time.

with loves,

2009-04-20T21:51:00.002+08:00

Currently at Cousin Queenie's house. She managed to keep me accompany her for the night. Hahaha ! Like finally, I choose which house to stay at last. Hmmm. Cause my house has already started the renovating process. Damn dirty my house is now , to me and Mummy lor. We can't try having a night there. But Dad actually wanted us to spent our night at our own house. Nonono.

Yesterday night's dinner was GREAT! But HUANG LERLING , this particular Sister of mine didnt turn up due to her work. And in another point, she thought it's held on Today, 20th. Big mistake she made. And so, the dinner still continue without her. Sitting down together with them to have a dinner is veryvery difficult. But every one time is spent together, I tresure those times. We took a group photos ! Currently with Sister Leyin. Will post it up when I got it from her :D:D

I'm now veryvery tired. I think instead of having a night spent in front of the laptop, I will be lying on the bed sleeping. Cause due to yesterday night, my Brother's Cow sleeping, I didnt have enough sleep and Im caught with Bigbig eye bag now. Haiyerrr.

MY SISTER AND EVERYBODY started school liao. All the best to everyone yo. Then I will left with no friends. :( Sadd me. Will be off to bed after this post ba. My eyes is really closing.
Goodnight people.

(Im using my Cousin's laptop. My laptop is stuck home. So, will update this few days only if I have the chance to get connected with it.)

2009-04-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

Tired day today. Whole body was in deep pain lor, don't know how to cure the pain. :/ Just know sitting down or lieing down will stop the pain for awhile, awhile only. Lol.

Skipped work at 10.30am, then rushed back home changed and cabbed down to Tpss. Er, some school that I dislike. LOL! But I just went back for the sake of somebodies. Saw some ex-classmates and they seems so oh-so-stress face lor. Sister Sinling and Xinyi are there too. Chat a little with them then went around look look. Find Miss Lee and Mdm Lim to chat awhile too. Love both of them luis. They are just like my Mum and Sis. Hehehe. <3

Bused back market to look for Sister. Then back to Sister's house. Actually wanted go for Pool session but in the end canceled. Paisehs sio. Went celerbration and off the T1 after that, Tampinese One(T1). Haha. Good short-form hur. Like finally I step in. Alotttt people lor. Will go back when its weekdays ba.

Alot thing happening tomorrow. Bed will be saying goodbyes to me and off to Grandma's house. Then will be having dinner with all my loves one. After tomorrow, 4 of them will be going back to school. Sigh. Everyone going on it's own ways ler :/

Still, Im looking forward for the dinner tomorrow. Let's take a nice group photo tomorrow please...

with loves,

2009-04-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

Waited up till 11plus yesterday night for Sister call lor. Haha. Ended up two person calling and tell me they reached already. Hehee. I'm glad she's back man. Means my time of lonely ended! Great. Want to turn in and sleep after that but just could not get to sleep.

Then ended up today is a tired day for me. Quite sleepy all day long. Work and finally saw Sister come and find me. Yippee. (L) After work came home and went out with Dad. He brings me to 400plus and place my laptop for some installation, then to Katong for my threading session. Although threading is quite a torture thingy, but I feel great after that. LOL! Crazy me hur. Then he went and buy his stuff, back to take my laptop and we're back home. Tired.

Onlined and chatted all the way on Msn. Happy chatting session also. (L)
Came in room and saw what Sister place in my room that she bought for me at China. Alot things sio. Thanks Sis !

Thought of sleeping after dinner which is now. But cannot! Cause will turn fat, so must let it disgest first. Haha, stupid me.
Alright time to sleep soon. :D

2009-04-16T21:48:00.004+08:00

Around 20 minutes more and I expect Sister Leyin to reach Singapore. I'm waiting for her call/sms now to tell me she reach safely! :D Miss her hell loads man. After today, I won't be boring already. There's again someone to accompany me. (L) Actually thought of having a good afternoon sleep then can go airport and fetch Sister up. But even after having a good sleep, I have no car to tag along lor. Quite sad about it hur.

Walked over to East Point Fairprice just now. Bought some things for my own use. Wanted to buy more but thinking my house or room can't stack anything more. I stop buying. So afte renovation, I have alot of thinking what to put in my room. A small snack bar to be place in, how about it? Hehehe.

Tomorrow will be another day of working. Then rot during the afternoon? No idea yet, hmmm. Seriously, I feel like playing Badminton lor. But time and people? Who is free and where? BORING. And I need to lose weight too. I don't mind people saying me fat right now. Cause I myself think so toooooo ! -.- What to do(?) Everyday eat eat and eat only. Like pig. Time to cut down on my meals. And time for money saving ! Motivate me, please people.

Time to wait for Sister SMS/Call. Goodnight lovely.

with loves,

I miss hanging out with ya guys.

2009-04-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

Counting down one more day and my lovely sister will be back. Yay-ness. Hehehe. But her flight is tomorrow night man, 10pm. Not sure wheather going to pick her up not. I need to get enough sleep during the afternoon time to be able and fetch her. If not the next day I will be having difficult time working. Aww.

And right now Im having difficulties of thinking how to set the Blogger comment box on in my blog :/ Dont think of putting Haloscan and Tagboard up. I think it look weird in my blog lor. Haiyer. If you know how to set, email me please. Or, talk to me online. Thank-you ah. :D:D

Nothing much today. Didnt get enough sleep in the morning cause as what I expected. Mum disturb me to wake up. Smart right? Hahaha. Then accompany her to get a new phone for Dad and went to Katong and did some home renovation stuff. Will be starting the renovation next week. I'm still thinking of going whose house and stay over man. hmmmm (?)

Bored eh. Working right now at where I'm working is damn (fill in the blank myself). I'm still hesistating of sending the resume out. Somehow quite vexed about it lor. Thinking for yourself, you want to work outside but you still need to think for your family. What will you do? Sigh.

&, I need to figure out how to use LiveJournal. Any kind soul willing to teach me? I need to learn for my Blogshop. Ahsocks-Wardrobe is not in a good-website-state now. Im so worried.

Night people. Going to turn in now. Working tomorrow.

withloves,

2009-04-14T23:56:00.004+08:00

After much thinking of setting my blog at either Blogger or LiveJournal. I still choose back Blogger. Only reason lies on I don't wish to leave this blog that contains so much memories of mine which I should actually put it behind to lead a new life of mine. Laughs.

Everythings changes at times. Just like now, my life is no longer happy like last time anymore. I don't know when it will happen again. After declared, I just know I can only treasure those short little times spent with you. But I will always remember the 5minute I have ever requested from you. Bet you have forgotten about it. Some particular person say this to me before : If you didnt even try , you will regret someday. And yes, I regretted.

Tuesday night. It had just pass which I should actually be having funs with my group of clique. But this night everyone is just tired. I think it's just a time for a rest. Then fun time will regain next week.

Ever since 2008, I havent been living my days without Leyin Sis for at least more than 5days (excluding my oversea trip). But this time I havent been seeing her for 8days already sia. No one to speaks to whenever I need someone. No one listening to my complain also. Hahaha. Bored without her luis. I miss you sister. Faster come back from your China trip and better tell me you enjoyed your days there lor. If not I will kill you ... Lol.

Alright. Time to off to bed. Night people.

Lastly , I miss this girl so much.

Your big big face luis sister ! xD

with loves,

2009-02-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

What are friends really for?
Comparison?
Sigh.
Somehow, I dont know how to face you people already.
:/

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Dearest , this is what I have been thinking nowadays.
We seems to be drifted apart.
I really wish to go back to the past that we were so good.
If this could happen again only we will friends.
Then I hope we could be back closest brother and sister like last time.
Cause I dont wish to lose contact with you.
But no matter what , i s t i l l l o v e y o u.

-

Treat on steamboat dinner yesterday night at my house.
Alot people turn up . No one break their promise to me.
Thanks alot people . Though wasnt feeling good and kept drinking without eating.
I still have alot alot of fun .
Thanks for forgiving me if I didnt entertain you much.
Cause I need to go here and there (:
ILOVEYOU PEOPLE !
Played till this morning 7am x:
:}

2009-02-01T20:25:00.001+08:00

This Chinese New Year was too bad still.
Received quite a number of hong baos already.
Hehehehehe ..

And this year was more better than last two years.
Cause I enjoy still chu3.
Everyday since chu xi night was back home at 5am.
Lol.

Then continue to work work work .
Hmm.
Uptill yesterday went to Sister Sinling house to bainian.
((:
Not bad . Meet up with friends is great.
Chat and have a great time with them yea.
Stayed till 10plus then cab home with Val .

And oh ya !
Im looking forward to Tuesday.
Sisters and Brothers are coming over my house for celebration too.
I meant dinner x:
Hehehehe.
(Although that day was Miao's Birthday.
At here , I apologised that I cant help you celebrate.)
Hope will be having great fun ya :D

<3<3

I hope this year will be having good times down.
Not everyday but almost all of the time please.
And thankyous.
;}

2009-01-25T22:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER SINLING!

Hope Im still not late to wish you here .
:D:D:D:D

And to every others :
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
Wish everyone get many many hongbao tomorrow ..
(;

2009-01-22T21:59:00.002+08:00

And there's this thing I agreed with my jiefu .
Thats's what I going to do tooo .
What I think that is precious given by somebody.
I wont use it , instead keep it with care.
So , I decided that everything will be kept except for the braclet.
Thats the thing I feel secure when it's with me.
(:

I promised, I wont lost anything that is precious to me.
I will take lots of care with it.

2009-01-22T21:02:00.002+08:00

OH HELLO!
Recently , I have forgotten to do something.
Haha.
People ! See carefully ah , DO GO AND VISIT MY BLOGSHOP!
Lovely clothing for everyone (:
http://ahsocks-wardrobe.blogspot.com
Support eh ! :D:D

And hmms , second thing .
Chinese New Year is round the corner .
I cant wait for it to come.
Cause this year I will be having longer breaks and means gathering will not be cancel or stop by anyone.
Loves! <3
YEA~
Please dont let me feel disappointed hao ma?
Let me have a great celebration ahead.
Thanks alot.

Oh yar.
There's alot of movies I wanna catch eh .
When can I catch all of them ?
Awwwwww .

2more days of work !
GOGOGOGOGOGOGO!
I must tahan .
Teeheeees .

And Im very sure there will surely be alot of photos coming into my phone during this period of times ;D;D

Lastly, I wish everyone
HAPPY ADVANCED CHINESE NEW YEAR !
:}

2009-01-20T02:50:00.002+08:00

I feel so shit right now.
I lost one of the part of the monkey dearest gave.
Sigh.
I felt so sorry to dearest.
It make me think I didnt take good care of the thing he gave me.
When I really want to keep it in care so much.
And thats one of the thing that resemble him to me.
Dearest , Im sorry.
:/

And upon receiving your call today ,
Im sorry for my naggy-ness.
I really miss you badly.
Sigh.
<3
At this timing it already mark the first year.
Do you remember what happen at this timing last year?

--

I meet 3 person who make my turning point at my life till now today.

2009-01-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

I seriously dont know what to do to my family right now.
Every thing goes the wrong way.
Ever since I say I want to stop studying, all bad things started to happen on me.
It is all my fault ?
My attitude change recently I know.
But who change it? My surrounding my stress.
Cant you guys just let me release it out for a moment?
I know, everyone will start to neglect me one day if I continue.
But I really have no idea what to do.
I know Im not born in a silver spoon.
I cant be like those girls that their daddy is a millionare or what.
I know Im born in a family that my parents treats me good.
But, cant every things just goes smoothly or just better than now my life down?
Do you know how much stress Im under right now?
Yes , I agreed my parents is down with stress or rather everyone.
But Im just a 16 years old girl.
I still have a long way to go . What do you expect ?
You wants my thinking to be like those 30 over plus aunties?
I really cant understand.
Why not everyone start to hate me right now?
Then one day , when I leave the world , I wont be worried that there will be people who will be sad over me.
Alright?
People , start to hate me.
Start to neglect me .

-

Yes , tomorrow mark the day of one year .
And I know you wont remember.
Cause I know you wont remember this little bits tiny oh-dont-care thing.
But I just wnat to say , when I needed your listening ears , will you be there?
Or it is still my sisters. :/

2009-01-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

After crying yesterday, I feel much more better.
Thanks sister for really being there to be my listen ears.
<3

Oh shit(!)
Spend a bomb today sial .
How am I going to survive?
Really going broke soon mans.
I need moneyyyyyy . Business mind please.
Haha .

Im so happy now.
Cause's I got back my monkey!
x:
Do you know how happy Im when I got that call that I can collect my thing?
Cause somehow thats represent your sight to me.
:/

2009-01-13T02:35:00.002+08:00

你们在我身上有看到快乐吗?

Do you all see happy appear on me now?

--

Just came back from HP.
Nothing much today .
Just drinking . And Im so idoitly stress now.
Shit .

Will be meeting darling girl tomorrow.
(:
Goodnight.

2009-01-11T22:35:00.003+08:00

Afterall , you all just assume what you thought is right and thinks that's my thinking too.
But everything is sosososososososo wrong.
Everything dosent goes smoothly but worse.
You people always delay on what you should do and thinks I really have alot of times for you.
What if I really leave ?
Is that the only time you guys will start to do what should be done?
If it's so , I will do it.
Im sorry , I wont hate you both .
Cause I know I cant.
But I just dislike the dont-care-attitude you guys gave me.
Eversince I stop studying, you both keep picking me on this topic.
I thought you wont, cause you told outside people that Im stress when this topic is being discuss.
But you failed my thinking.
Please , stop picking this topic on me.
You think I really fucking dont care about my future?
If that's what I want , I can jolly well go and die.
What for staying on , living on ?
Is because I still care for it. Dont think I dont care about my future.
Just that you dont know what I tried to plan.
I promise , I will leave as soon as possible.
Just because of your one sentence today , I will go and find any job this coming week start or after new year.
But I will try my very best to find it before March.
Believe me.
Cause's you guys dosent believe me and dosent understand me anymore.

--

Im gonna break down soon again.
I hate it. I seriously wannt to slap myself and go into a comma then I'll lost my memory.
Everything I will forget then I wont be stress over it .
My feeling is damn shit right now.
No one will understand me now.
Even the one I really wannt to speak to is not with me now.
Sighhhhhh .

Going back to that retard school tomorrow again.
To get back that pathetic 2 subject O's result.
Lunch after that together with sisters.
How long since I last meet up with them? :/

And people out there.
Do you guys have any jobs to recommend?
Prefer sales or admin .
Do email me . thanks .

When you look at me , do you feel what Im trying to tell you?
I think the
answer is _.
<3

2009-01-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

Cleared up most of my things in my room today.
3 full China bag in my storeroom.
._.

Dinner-ed at Marine Parade just now.
Didnt really enjoyed what I ate recently.
Sigh.

Took a stroll around ECP.
Alone .
Listening to the sea makes your sight came into my mind.
But thats is just misses.
Didnt really have a good interaction with everyone already.
They just made me feel that , they dont know me.
They just assume what they thought .
Hais.

Gonna turn in soon.

-

O's result coming out soon.
I gave you my most bestest wish for you getting good result.
<3

Those little dedication.

2009-01-08T00:47:00.004+08:00

Im so on time right ?
I say I will blog "tomorrow" & here I come at 12.47am .
Lol.
This all of a sudden off-day is so great to me.
Aircon being change till this late timing and cause me cant get to sleep.
And now , I can sleep late.
Yays ! :D:D

Yeps . I intended this very first post after my long break to be a dedication .
& here it comes .

To my 4-years sistership sisters ; Sinling , Xinyi , Jolene :
Sisters . I really hope our sistership could last and wont fade in this coming years.
Now , 4 of us have been separated except Ling and Xinyi is still continue with your Sec5 life.
I give both of you my bestest wish of getting good score for yar O's this year eh .
I really miss you girls very much. I miss those lil days we have jokes together , laughing like mad girls.
How I wish those days were back , but history wont repeat itself.
Now, let us do meet up often to catch up with each of our life yea.
I miss and love you sisters .

To my sweethearts ; Elaine , Jiajing , Huimiao , Yanshan :
Hey babes !
I think I could only catch up with Elaine the most among us hur .
It been a year since I last saw jing too right ?
I miss all of you so much . When is our next everybody-outing coming eh ?
If not I know you 4 girls going to step into either JC or Poly lifestyle.
And you might forget meeee :/
I think my friendship with you girls have come to 9 years yea .
So do takecare of yourself and ring me often to go out hur.
Remember , weekdays! Haha . Cause Im working :D
All the best to you all on the 12th , O's result releasing day.

To the Huang's family :
Guys . Though I might only get close with you guy this one year down only.
But you'll never know how much you means to me.
Cause sometimes I could only find you at the very first time.
& you guys never fail to cheer me up.
I thanks you guys for the year 2008.
Though it is not a good year for me .
But Im glad with you guys around its more memorable.
And we will be having our New year tuan yuan fan soon yar :D

To Ahjie , Jiefu , Fangyun , Haijun , Dage :
YOYOYO! Haha .
Thanks you guys for always bringing me to have fun.
Especially at HP . Those time were happy like crazy .
Lol. Thanks for always caring me whenever Im in trobles and problem.
& always trying to give me a solution to it .
Treating me like a sister to you people do really make me feel contented to have you guys us my sister and brothers.
(:

To my Brothers, Jying, Valerie :
HELLO PEOPLE!
Its has been how long since we last meet up hurrrrr ?
Haha . I know my ahrong-ge is always finding me out but I always fail him.
Im so sorrryyyy! Dui bu qi ah xD
Let do meet up soon to have a meal together kay ?
Imissyoupeople .

To my special Brother Witaya and Chanhong :
Guys , you never know how much I misses you both.
Those times spent with you guys just came into my mind sometimes.
When Im down , I hoping you two to be there and cheer me up.
Do come into my dreams again . I miss you boys :/

-

Yups , dedication done .
I think I should still go to sleep now.
Didnt really grab much sleep these days .
Goodnights.

Do you know how much you mean to me ?
Do you know how much tears I had
for you ?
And do you know how much I miss you ?
<3

2009-01-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

I'll be back blogging soon.
Or rather , tomorrow night (?)

& You people know I misses you .

--

I say I miss you like there's no tomorrow.
Cause I believe you're the one.
How've you been these days ?
Sigh .

我好想我的正常生活。

2008-11-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

Damn , damn , damn .

Did I just say some words I should not say ?
Lol. Thats not bad word right xD
Haa .

But. Recently just happened stuffs that I really dont understand my life.
It is too complicated for me now .
That I think it is really difficult for me at this particular time.
So, sometimes when I had the Heart to heart talk with someone.
After saying out , I really felt more relief .
D:

Anyways!
I bought my C905 already !
:D
Loves eh .

Okay .
I really really miss alot alot alot of people.
I really really felt Im a lifeless freak now.
All my timing of doing list is alrdy being schedule .
I dont like.
I having lesser time with my loves one.
Sigh .
I miss those times.
:/

I miss I miss I miss .
Wo hao xiang luis !
):

人，好难过

2008-11-02T21:35:00.002+08:00

Yays ! Im left with one more paper on Wednesday, 050808 !
:DD
And boy is left with 2 papers.
I think he is waiting for the day to come veryvery long le .
Haa! Play hard after your paper boy , cause you work very hard for it :D

Im waiting for that paper to finish and let me do whatever shyt I wanted for long .
Lol.
First thing of all , dye-ing and highlighting it mans !
Heheeee .
After that slowly comee .. xD

--

Sigh . I hate being the middle man when every incident happen.
But my life is just being post as the middle man work every times.
Everyone incident ; all the times .
I'm sick of it okay ?
I dont choose to be it , who want to make things difficult for themselves.
But I have no chioce , it just come like a wind .
Now, Im worried , worried for my sister .

My dearest ahjie,
You know , I have supported most of the decision you made.
I hope this time you will succed and prove them that you can do what you say.
What you're facing now , I understand . Do takecare of yourself uh.
Dont over stress, dont be like it.
You'll seriously go crazy if you are me . Cause at least you got a husband to communicate with.
While , I have none. Cause I hate to add trouble for peeps.
Anyways , any probs can share eh . All the best for tomorrow interview.
I hope to hear good news from you . :D
<3

And every things happening now in my family , I'm worried .
My parents' stall . I'm awaiting for my Bro ORD .
One more month to go , thats means I helping my parent the days till he ORD.
After he ORD ? Im worried mum cannt take it .
Cause I know the age of them and many physical problem lie on them.
But , I really wanted to go out into the working industry and take a look.
In another hand , Im waiting for some peoples that you can find to take over me and sister.

Up next , I think I need times alone to really think of what decision I'm going to make.
Hais . Sometimes , I really have no direction .
My mind is like so stupid and idoit .
Dumbo !

--

I miss all my loved ones .
Especially ;
Elaine , Huimiao , Jiajing , Yanshan , Sinling , Xinyi and Jolene .
How long since we really sit down and talk ?
I miss those times when we had fun and everything .
Sigh. Life is getting more and more bad.
I hope it will turn well in year 2009 .
Cause Im facing too much problems in year 2008.
:/

--

Dearest , Imy .

2008-10-24T17:20:00.002+08:00

o.O
Amazing ! I didnt left everything blank on today paper .
Haha . Actually mostly I must thanks to yesterday 2 or 3 hours of reading through.
It makes some help though.
x:
But getting good or bad result , I wont be sure about it.
At least I happier at taking this O's math paper than N's amath paper.
Its more exciting ;D;D
The whole hall is filled up with people man ! :D:D
Lol.

After paper , send buddy home first .
Then meet up with dearest for breakfast.
Buddy leg is injured :/
Get well soon kay . You like that walk hor , cannot play pool leis.
Haha. So your leg must faster recover, then we can go play pool ! :D

After breakfast , came home .
Then had a veryvery long of afternoon nap.
Lol.

Next paper on 30th .
And oh , I think I will be doing some things on 051108 after my last paper !
Lol.

--

Get well soon dearest.
Feed your stomach with warm food recently to make it feel better.
Then he will let you feed him more with better food after that .
xD

2008-10-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

Lol.
Tomorrow taking Emath O's paper le.
It seems so (idk how to describe) to me.
Well well well .
Just to say from what I seriously thinking ,
some percentage to me , it seem like so important ,
but to the left over percentage , it seem like its nothing .
See what I mean by I dont know what Im going to decide on at the end of the year?

But my mind now is totally filled with ideas of finding jobs outside.
Sigh.
I know many out there will wish that I will continue my studying.
But , due to my whatsoever, I think I have let you all down.
I dont know why .
To me , I dont think having high cert is something to be really veryvery proud of.
Cause , I believe good things will only be paid off with hard works.

(Whatever , you might think that I'm speaking rubbish.)

I'm awaiting for 051108 to come.
It will be the day Im hoping for.
Freedom is there for me .
:/

2008-10-22T16:57:00.003+08:00

Last day of off/rest . D:
Haha . Tomorrow gonna start working again.
And , today is my two sisters first day of work together with brothers and val.
Wonder how they coping now?
Hmm . Tag me JOLENE TAN !
Tell me hows your first day of work nah.
:D:D:D

And oh , slept veryvery late last night , 4.30am.
x:
Was on phone and sitting on the massage chair .
It made me more energetic.
Lol.

Gonna have steamboat dinner later on !
:D

LALALALALALALALALALALALALA !
Im a oh-so-boring person now xD!

--

And dearest ,
believe me. My heart belongs to you and my family now.
Hmm. Include my sisters too.
Others than that, no one else yeah (:
I know you biaomian say that msg you wont ask about it.
But I just want you to know,
that is just something he state clear to me.
Alright . :D
ILY <3

--

And hmm .
This is to someone who might not be reading it.
Boy , we'll always stay like now.
Forever great and good friends, problems can share together.
Or together hang out for drinks once in awhile.
I sincerly hope you will last with your girlfriend.
Takecare (:

2008-10-21T02:36:00.002+08:00

Johor today is simple . (:
Didnt do much but just manicure .
Hehe .

Then sakae for dinner and Hougang pub just now.
Had quite a number of fun just now.
Since long I had this kind of high fun alrdy.
hmmmmm .
Drank not too much.
So , Im not drunk yet.
Thats why I can still blog .
LOL!

But haijun say he will get me my damn belated present on next week.
Lol.
Let's wait and see then .
xD

And dearest , today paper had pass .
Lets just wait and see what the result will be out.
I believe you will get what you want .
Cause I can see how much effort you put in for this .

--

Elaine babe .
I think I raftly know what happened already ?
Remember what I tagged at your blog .
Put everything aside now and let the piriority lay on your O now.
Cause thats is what you always try to achieve since you start this year.
Right ?
Anything you can just ring me up , anytime .
And let me know you are someone that know what to do.
This may cause a veryvery big blow to you.
But studies to you and everyone in your family now is first place .
Take alot alot of care alright .
I will sure meet you up after all your paper and we can speak everything under the sun/moon.
Just like last time.
And had all the fun we have miss out these months .
IMY (:
--

Imissdearest too .

好HIGH哦。

2008-10-20T13:01:00.002+08:00

COOOOOOL !
3 days straight off seh .
I'm so happy happy right now.

Dad and mum is at malaysia now le.
hmm. Means Im free again for the night .
x:
But will be going JB later with sister.
Lets see , whenever Im going out with sister, I will tend to spend alot.
I dont know why ? hmm ._.

O level Chemisty today oh .
Goodluck to everyone who taking .
Esp to dearest . You can do it !
Believe in yourself and of cause the times you spend studying for it.
I believe your hardwork will sure pay off with good result :D:D
And you will have the veryvery big smile on your face when you got your result
( :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D )
Hehe .

Alright . Most of my friends are taking O too .
Me myself too , this coming Friday ..
O level E-math , gosh .

Takecare people .
Remember , I'm missing everyone of you .
You especially dearest.
Haa .
--
Seriously , idk why am I so high today .
LOL !
--
And and , yesterday night ..
My little nephew slept with me seh .
o.o
:}

好开心.

2008-10-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today's different !
Hehe :DD

Working is still as usual.
After that, mahjong (!) and won 20bucks.
Dinner outside with parents .
Then down to meet up with sister yin and qifeng.
;D;D
COOL!

But hor , somehow quite dulan after hearing upon some stuffs.
URGHS !
Damn damn damn youuuuuu mans .
D:

Study hard yo people.
I believe you guys will acheive what you guys want man .
(:

--

Chencaiyun :
Haa !
Okayokay , congrats hurr .
x:
Should I continue replied tags in my post?
Or should I change back to tagboard.
hmmmmmm.

Elaine :
Okay . No probs girl !
Definetely will and its a must for us to meet up.
HEHE !
Iloveyous ...

好无聊。

2008-10-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Finally ,
blogskin changed !
:D
Used some times to look for this new one.
But I still like simple one will do (:

Hmm.
Nothing much these day hurr.
Life's still the same.
Working , rotting , sleeping ...
Continue routine everyday.
Life is getting more and more boring ah.
Cant spend money like last time already.
Need to think this and that before spending the money.
Sigh.
Why my money seems to be flowing out so easily ? :/

And hopefully,
I could change my job to something I like after this year.
It makes me so envy my sisters and friends to work as admin.
Though I know the job pay might be lesser then what I earn now.
But at least let me have a try of it.
Can I ?
:/

And oh ,
I went to sign up for Yoga lesson just now with Priscillia.
Hehe. There's motive in it man.
How I wish I will get it.
And ahling might be joining us :D:D
This lesson is starting on the 4nov.
anyone wanna join us ? ;D;D

Alright.
Routine gonna start again .

--

All the best to everyone who is taking O level at this period !
Especially to my love and darling girl .
<3

2008-10-10T08:47:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to my Buddy ! :D
Great Belated celebration we had with him yesterday .
(:

Gonna meet up with Delwin & co. later.
Today is Witaya & Chanhong's 49th day.
Times pass so fast.
Sigh.

--

Elaine :
Hehe.
& so we must enjoy after your Os.
:D
imy.

Huang Lerling :
I know what kind of reason you thinking.
Thats is just like 10% of it?
Lol.
Cause I posted that post before the night.
So, you guess wrong!
:D

2008-10-08T16:40:00.001+08:00

fuck.
:/

好想念你们。

2008-10-07T00:23:00.003+08:00

The images of you two came into my mind last night.
The images just came into my eyesight.
My eyes turn watery and tears starting dropping again last night.
Sigh.
The missing is getting deeper too.
How're you guys? Everyone misses you , I believe.
imissyouguys.

--

Elaine :
Haha. I know luis.
Kidding only.
But you guys de O still got one month plus to go.
:/
I miss going out with you people.
Shopping man!

Guisheng :
Haha.
Okayy. Thanks.
I believe your gf did well this time luis :D

Huang Leyin :
Sister , iloveyou too.
Remember : Stay Strong ! :DD

Huang Lerling :
Blahblahs x;
Okayy luis. Forgive you.
Since it already pass so long.
Haha!
Takecare.

2008-10-02T19:23:00.002+08:00

Blogger having problems with uploading photos .
-.-
I will see or try to upload those photos taken on 290908 next time round.

--

Elaine:
Haha.
Okay..
((:
Oh. I think wee ahmiao have forgotten about me x:
LOL.

Huang lerling :
Means you play daidee jui forget about me?
But hor. 11.59pm is before you play daidee if I not wrong .
hmmmmmm.
hahahahahaha !

Guisheng:
Of course.
I will thanks people for wishing me de okayyyy.
haha.
Zuo ren jui shi ai zai.
x:
(:

祝我生日快乐。

2008-09-30T21:36:00.005+08:00

M-Y A-G-E H-A-D T-U-R-N 1-6.

LOL!
Yesterday was a day that I actually thought I would have pass it like a normal day.
But it turn out totally different.
It's all thanks to this bunch of people..
Cheng Sinling, Goh Xinyi, Valerie Chui, Delwin Lim, Mark Seah, Darence Tan and Yong WeiRong.
&
Huang Qifeng, Huang Lerling and Huang Leyin.

I just love this 10 person so much.
Hehe.
They made my day such a wonderful , enjoyable and a memorable one.
I was being so down all this weeks down.
But they just brighten my day like so easy.
Haha.
Celebrated with first group of people at Ehub Kbox.
They bought my cakes and treated me singing and eating.
Everyone sang a song especially for me.
And they make me laugh like maddd.
Thankyous so much.

Afterwards around 7pm,
cabbed down to Tm and meet up with my love one.
(Oh! And I saw Vannessa Ahmei :D)
Haha.
Lerling and Leyin bought me one big Box of present which shock me when I see it mans.
And Qifeng bought me two present which I'll love it so much.
Thankyous !
Bought Ticket for the movie "The days"
And went to take their dinner at Ajisen.
Played arcade after that.
Lol.
Its so funnnn . :D:D
After arcade jui went to watch movie and cabbed home after that.

Reach home around 11.45pm.
Mummy reached home later than me -.-
And she actually thought I wont be home for the night.
LOL!

When I opened the box of present ahling and ahyin bought for me.
I WAS TAMADE SHOCK LO!
Cause its all stuff that is redddd.
Which is Elmo stuff and rose(fake) and chocolates!
Hehe.
Xiexie oh.
(Qifeng gave me the present I already opened at Ajisen x:
Its a Gold Monkey Handphone strap from swanvoski and a braclet from Perllini.
Wo ye hen xi huan luis.
I will use it de , no worries ! :D )

--

真的很谢谢你们让我过了多一个难忘的生日！
我爱你们哦！

--

For those who wish me personally:
Mark seah, Darence Tan, Yong weirong , Valerie chui, Cheng sinling , Abel ho , Linyufeng , Huang lerling , Huang leyin , Huang qifeng , Vannessa Ang , Delwin Lim, Goh xinyi, Icha, Guisheng (see! I edited.)

On msn :
ICHA, Limhwee. They are the only two.
HEHE!
& SOH JINAN.
(/edited)

Friendster:
Guisheng , Lim Jooting , Ahxiu jie , Yong wei rong, Limhwee , Peishen jie, Jiayi , Abel ho, Ling Yingxiu, Princess Quek, Shimin and Qiaohui.

Tags:
Huang Lerling , Vinnie Ong.

By smses :
Elaine Chan , Ahjie Lim Sockhong , Jolene tan , Darence Tan , Huang leyin ,Fangyun, Huang Lerling, Ng shixiang, Cheng Sinling, Queenie Cousin, Ling Yingxiu, Li Jiajing, Haijun, Ntuc , Deanna, Mummy , Abel ho, Priscillia, Vinnie Ong, Limin, Kaijun , Vincent Goh, Delwin Lim, Valerie chui, HUANG QIFENG. ( see! You are the last. )

TO ALL THESE PEOPLE!
Thankyou so much for the greetings !
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

--

Charmaine :
Chilling already.

Huang Lerling :
OH! You are not the last.

Vinnie :
Thanksyou !

Guisheng :
Okay.. I edited.
haha ! Thanks ah.

Tag replies.

2008-09-26T20:30:00.003+08:00

Currently stop blogging for the moment..
Will continue to blog when I think I know what I'm doing.
(:

--

Zhongsinling:
x:
Ps for this late reply of tags.
haha. Okayy.
But currently I love to see ahem then angmoh eh.
Haha!
(:

Huanglerling:
Lol.
He is keep complaining to me that he is having a headache now.
HAHA!
I just want everyone to stay by my side.
Thats the best present I will get ! :D

Sean:
Hmm.
I coping fine ba?
You?
Use my tagboard to talk to amirah hur.
haha.

Queenie :
I feel it mans.
Hehe.
I hope his will always beat yours hur.
HAHAHAHAHAH!
Iloveyou too luis, no worries.
x:
Link you up (:

Warani :
Imissyou too girl.
No worries, I am coping well (:
Iloveyou too :D

我依然相信你。

2008-09-11T22:13:00.003+08:00

Afterall ,
before I get to sleep tonight.
I know something deep in my heart now is.
I believe in you . I believe you are still the guy I love so deep.
And I still remembered all those times we been together.
Every little bits things.
(:
(Esp, how you sang 爱要怎么说出口over the phone last time.
The first guy who sang a song to me so nicely.)

Imissyou, dearest.
No matter what, I will wait till everything seems to be settle down.
I'll try my best myself to get back to the girl you wanted.
I want to be back the good and understanding girl you once say.
But towards studies , Im sorry boy , I cant be the perfect girl you wanted.
hao bu hao ? (:

But I seriously want to get rid of those nightmares I'm having recently.
Its irritating my life mans.
How can I get the picture of it off my mind ?
Oh my , Oh my !

--

Indeed , I spent a great time with my sisters today.
Haha . Counted as a belated celebration for my sis XINYI ba.
Sorry hor . Minus of cake and Happy Birthday Song.
Hope you still love the present we got for you (:
Will update more tomorrow.
Im in dead beat.
Oh ! I bought the Guess bag I wanted alrdy ! :D
Mummy bought for me actually. Hehe .
Love you mum ! ( Just that you dont make me or I dont make you angry will do x: )

--

Toot :
Thanks for you jiayou-ness.
you are ?
haha .

2008-09-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

I think breaking down once in a day is my process of my life now.
:/

--

I felt useless sometimes.
I heart ache when seeing my grandma is in this state now.
And worst is , I cant help her much.
Damn. I think Im so "orbi good" to suffer so much nowadays.
Sigh.

And Im really going with a very very down mood.
D:

--

Chencaiyun :
Thankyou luis !
But, hmm .
Its really difficulth for me to say what I facing now.
Cause I also dontknow .
:/
Xie luis, my fucker (: !

了解？

2008-09-09T22:41:00.003+08:00

I break down infront of my parent today , again .
This is the second time I break down infront of them.
And this time more jialat ,
in front of public sia .
So -.- !
Although not alot people luis .
But guess what is on the topic again , studies .

damn ! I still cant take it.
Sigh.
Whenever people talk to me on this topic.
I get veryveryvery stress .
Its like a huge stone strike on my brain.
Dont ask me why , cause even myself also dont know.
And if you think you really know what Im thinking , Im sorry.
Cause I know nobody know what I really want and think.

--

I should stop saying about that before my tears start flowing.
Ohya . hmm .
Went in Johor today (:
And tomorrow to auntie house :D

--

I think Im a little drunk yesterday night ?
But not totally , cause I still know what I doing .
Lol.
I really want to try to get totally drunk one day.
haha . But my friends must be with me.
x:

疑惑

2008-09-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

我真的好想你！
你还爱我吗？
你对我的信任还在吗？

IMISSMYDEAREST!

恶梦。

2008-09-08T16:49:00.002+08:00

不要说你了解我当你跟本不了解我。
你只会让我更伤心难过。
我的心，好痛好烦。
恶梦连夜缠我。

--

Nightmare hunting me nowadays .
Sigh ..

我的心好痛。我的心好烦。

2008-09-06T15:31:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden recently, I felt that Im such a bitch.
:/

--

I know Im doing things that you dont like recently.
I know you dont like girls that are like that.
I know you dont like me being like that.
Am I right?
Sigh.

--

Why cant my stress get lesser , but always increase instead?
Why I am throwing temper so easily sometime?
Why am I always getting so restless over everything so easily?
Why am I always thinking of you but I dont know what to do?
Why am I still cant convince myself that you are not angry with me?
Why am I feeling that we are having a distance?
Why whenever I see those messages, I felt that we are not the same?
But I always convince myself by lots of excuse.
Why am I changing that I dont wish to ?
Why am I having lots of problem recently?
Why I always dont know what I really want?
Why am I crying so easily every night before sleep?
Why I cant get into sleep again nowadays?
Why am I getting nightmare of you that you will go back to her?
Why I always suffering from all these problem?
Why are some people around me so carefree without any problem?
Why people around always say I wont not have any problem cause they still think Im small?
Why am I always the one doing so many weinan stuff.
Why ?
I still got alot of "Why" in my mind.
But all these "Why", they dont have a answer to it.

I once told you before I am scared to lose you and your answer back was you are scared too.
Is this answer still the same till now ?
Sigh.
I dont wish to think much about it now.
Let just concentrate on our upcoming exams.
All the best to you as I know you and your family are putting lots of hope on you for this exam.
Me too.
I wish you could do all your best , okay ?
I hope to heard good news of your result when it's out.
But will you be calling me and tell me like this year?

I hope I can stop myself from everything now.
我好想放弃全世界的东西。
我的心好痛。

--

How I wish that night I was really knock down by the car ...

好开心哦！

2008-09-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

Alright.
Mum and dad is at oversea now , Bangkok.
Together with my sister-in-law and family.
I hope they're safe and will be back safe.
(:

--

Yesterday was totally insane in the afternoon.
One lonely person staying home and blast music like crazy.
haha.
Met up with sister only at 6plus?
Trained down to somerset and went walking around.
Guess who I saw when Im at Wisma Sony Style?
Miss Jac Ee! God! She's still the same luis.
Talking still so loud and skinny -.-
AND ! sacarstic. -.-

Trained back tamp at 10plus.
Mahjong session at night with ahyin, ahling and darence.
Up till 4plus, midnight.
LOL!

And as for today, got up at 3 in the afternoon.
mahjong awhile this time again xD
then went to 800plus just now.
Went Pris's house to help her take a look at her pets.
And just came home (:

Shyt ! Tomorrow start the mark of N level.
Social Studies 1st paper.
HAHA! I actually thought togethere with Geo. x:
Till last min then know dont have .
All the best ba.
And I hope to end this fast (: !

--

好开心作晚看到你。
你知道我有多想你吗？
哈哈。

--

Elaine :
hmm . I hope so ba .
Imy (: !

Chencaiyun :
What sia .
I didnt wish you ah ? x:
hmm . Come my house slack ?
need to pay de leis . hehe .

Vinnie :
Cheering up le (:
IMY tooo !
thanks for concern yeah.

Jying and Valerie :
Woah. Both tag together as one tag ah.
Haha .
Glad that you both are feeling better.
Link me up in your blog ?
You guys takecare too.
Anything can contact me (:
(And, you're welcome ! )

Sean :
haha .
Glad that you know you long time no tag hur .
x:
Thanks for concern yeah.

Huanglerling :
HAHA !
Okayokay.
Long time no see you for such a long hours already.
We haven have our Crazy session .
hehe .
But hor ! suaning you two sister is fun.
OPPS!

2008-09-01T11:40:00.003+08:00

I'm here to make at edit .
(for yesterday's post)
haha .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUANG LERLING,LEYIN,QIFENG 'S MUM!

--

Huanglerling : SIS . big enough alrdy ? x:

生命真的好脆弱

2008-08-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

Hope I'm still not late yet .

Happy Birthday Goh XINYI ! (:

--

Sigh.
Jiefu's ahma pass away today.
Receive the msg upon the call during work.
Why ?
People leaving the world.
But Im glad to heard that she left with a smile.
Hope she'll rest in peace.
Life seems to be so fragile to me now.
I promised , I will treasure everyone from now onwards.

Nothing much.
But dad and mum going oversea tomorrow.
Home will be left only with me and maids.
sis will be coming over and accompany me.
If not I will sure nua at home myself and anyhow think :/

I want to revamp my room soon !
And oh , I told mum to buy me Guess bag when she's at airport.
I will waiting for their return ! :D:D
And hmm , 一路顺风.
Though I'm quite boring of cannot join them . T.T

--

男孩，你生我的气吗？
我想你。
当我伤心难过的时候，我好想你在我身边。

让我们把想念收在心里。

2008-08-29T21:46:00.003+08:00

The feeling is just so weird without you two in the group. :/

--

Woke up early in the morning today.
Rush to school for nothing. Damn.
Then cab down to Witaya's house and meet his brothers.

Went to pray for Witaya and Chanhong today.
I feel so glad going to see him.
I'm so scared that chance will get less to visit them when they are just gone like that.
I hope they enjoy the enviroment they are at now.
I hope they are happy right now.
I hope they are still not forgetting about us.
x:

Alright.
Afterwards, went back Witaya house and have lunch and headed down to Chanhong house.
Until when it's time we came back witaya house and fetch uncle and ahmei down to grandlink.
I hope their brothers are feeling well now.
And jingying and valerie ..
Cheer up guys.
让我们把想念收在心里。

Then headed back home around 8plus.
Thanks uncle for the night ! (:
Received msg and heard that dad isnt happy.
:/
Sigh.

--

And oh.
Once again , sorry sis.
I give you a belated celebration kay.
(:

--

Tag replied :
Okay. I will (:

我会快乐的。

2008-08-28T20:31:00.002+08:00

I know I've to go on with my life now.
But still , give me time to shiyin that they are not here with us.
I wont forget them , never.
I couldnt possiblely forget about them within a few days.
I still need times.

And oh please , do not ask me about their cause of death.
I dont know.
Asking me only will make me tear.
And dont ask me weather the newspaper are speaking true anot.
It totally a different story.
Sigh.
If you guys really think so , then dont even ask about it.

I tried my really best to live properly now.
Dont worry.
I know they dont want everyone of us to be like that.
takecare.

Gonna meet their brother tomorrow.
And, Im sorry if I really cant help xinyi to celebrate her birthday.
I hope you understand, sis.
I really not in the mood :/
Sigh .
I hope to give you a belated one?

--

Tag replied :
I'll cheer up.
Its just a matter of time.
Thanks for concern. (:

你们真的走了。

2008-08-26T18:25:00.004+08:00

Went to Witaya's wake early in morning today.
Sigh.
The minute I was awake, my heart goes "Today is the day. The day Witaya will be gone, forever."

Went in to see him quite a number of times.
Couldnt bear to see him go just like that. :/
But today again , I still felt that he's eye is going to open.
Imisshimso.
Stayed in with all his brothers and sisters around him.
Sing song for him and talk to him and joke with him.
Sigh. That the last time we're able to see his face.
The face that will etched in my mind, forever.
Memories from him will never be erased .

Tampinese Secondary people came.
Everyone pay him a last respect.
Most of them teared . Which I told myself , I cant .
I should let him go peacefully.
But when its time the coffin going to be pushed in to burn.
The moment , I shouted "WITAYA" in my heart and shout it out silently.
I cant control my tears. It just rolled down and hurts my heart alot.
The moment, everythings just run through my mind.
Every times that is spent with him.

I'm sorry. I didnt keep my promise not to cry.
And break it at the last minute.
Sigh.
IMISSYOU,WITAYA!
Went to Chanhong's , the place they place him.
Talk to him awhile .
Imissyoutoo, chanhong !

Everything ended at 4pm.

Now, I hope both of you are together up there and being happy.
Nothing could describe how much I misses you guys.

我好想你们

2008-08-25T21:53:00.003+08:00

朋友！我好想你们！

Went to Witaya's side today .
Sigh. He just left us like that.
Without saying anything.
I cant believe you guys are gone , forever.
I cant believe it until I see witaya lying there.
Seeing his handsome and cute face made me know, you are gone forever.
But I sence that you're just sleeping and you'll wake up.
I see that your eye will open again.
You tried to talk to us.
But it's all so impossible alrdy.

Chanhong have go. Never be back anymore.
But your soul will always stays in our heart, together with witaya.
Imissyouguys, remember this.
我们有缘的话，相信来世我们还会做回好朋友。

Seeing their family , my heart really break.
All we can do is just to help them if they need us.
Pray for them to rest well .

Ahma & auntie ,
you two must stay strong , witaya will be happy if you guys are happy.

And I believe ,
all of your brother will always remember the brother-hood you guys have gone through.
Sigh.
Rest well.

--

Tag Replied :
thanks for concern.
(:

朋友，我想你们！

2008-08-24T21:12:00.007+08:00

This post is specially for my two haopengyou ; Ku Witaya and Sia Chanhong.

Everything happen so sudden.

Guys, if you're able to see this.
Remember one important point , imissyou people !
Sigh . I miss the presence of you two people making people around you to be happy.
Consoling people when they are down and using many ways to make them happy.
Remember times I see all of you being together with others brother.
You people joke all under the moon like nobody business.

Witaya , the guy standing behind me. I remember everything from we first knew each other during Secondary one.
how you took number from me and joking with me.
how cheerful you are all the years down.
how you and your brothers came my house to accompany when my parent gone oversea.
how you celebrate my birthday last year for me, I called you to stay and you stay overnight.
how you once joke and called me maomei and those sweet things.
though it's all joke, but it's still the memories you gave me.
I remember during Secondary 1 , we skipped school and went Pula Ubin.
I remember last year, we skipped school and went East Coast Park and then to Kbox.
how you console me when I dont feel good.
how we played during the times at school.
there's once I called you stop piaking my nose, but you refuse.
I miss the times.
But I know, all this will stay in the memories of you to me now.
Rest well boy , imissyou .

Chanhong,
CHEERFUL GUY !
WO XIANG NI!
You must stay happy and cheerful up there too okay , promise us.
I miss your smile that always will be stick on your face.
I miss those joke you made of jolene.
I always keep repeating remember the day you came my house to study.
I miss how sometimes I speak to you of my xin shi .
Though I know you through Sinling , I still know you since Secondary 1.
I remember how cute of you when you act cute.
But you are really cute.
Do stay happy up there and rest well together with witaya.
Imissyou boy.

You two will stay handsome and cheerful and cute inside our heart no matter what.
I still cant accept the fact that you guy have leave us but this is a reality.
Sigh . I will miss you people.
You two will stay in the memories of mine .

--

Why is this happening to me ?
One month ago , my niece .
One month later , my two haopengyou.

Must Year2008 be like this to me?
Sigh. I hope everything will come to a full stop.
Im breaking down.
I dont have the mood for anything now.
Hais :/

Treasure whoever is with you now.
Love them no matter are they the opposite sex of yours.
Tell them iloveyou truefully if you really love them.

决定。

2008-08-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

Sigh .
I feel so lost right now.
Currently thinking :
我好想发神精一次。

Seems so dead right now.
Everythings comes and goes, but it just dont seem right.
:/

I'm really glad that dad and mum understand what Im thinking now.
And that they didnt look down on me even though this decision is so ...
But to others around , if my decision make you feel that you have such a stupid friend.
Then Im so sorry. Im such a stupid person.

And to people(friends) in my school :
Dont you people think my relationship with you people are getting thinner and thinner.
Sometimes, there isnt any words that is going between us.
I feel that Im so "out" of you people.
Or even , some sort of disturbing you people.
Hais.

For now, my only direction is to finish up my N this year.
And then , Im sorry.

If you people wanna talk to me , but the subject lies on study.
Then dont bother come and talk to me.
Cos I wont seriously wanna talk to you on this subject.
Just remember this Question in mind :
Will you or are you looking down on me?

--

我今天看到你了。
和你谈电话的是不是最近在陪你的人呢？
我希望你现在过得好好. ((:
(真的好想你.)

--

Elaine :
Babe, imy too.

Huanglerling :
You gone missing luis .
haha x:
seeyou soon too ! (:

Qiaohui :
Haha .
Sent! She's alright now.

为何我终是顺着你们，我也不知道。

2008-08-15T20:58:00.004+08:00

Tell me how am I going to stay at that bloody school ?!
I cant even stand going there for 2hours.
:/

That ass came and talk to me today.
damn her.
Dont even give her the freaking attitude.
Say I put down your phone ?
fuck you luis. Whose phone is not talking first ?
Go and think luis hors . If I really kup your phone .
I will straight put down after I know its you.
And what for asking hows my mother.
You dont even bloody believe that she admit to hospital yesterday.
what the use asking me about her .
Dont tell me you're concern , cause I dont need yours.
If there's any , it will just worsen it.
Just dont care or talk to me , will you ?
I dont even want to treat you as my form , then you can jolly well dont treat me as your student. I dont even mind you do that , I will be more happy.

And to some teachers which I know you people treat me well ,
I'm sorry for how I'm now .
I really dont have the mood to explain to you guys what happening now.
I dont even now what going on now.
I dont have any planning . Cause I know those planning wont go as how I planned.
So there isnt any use.
Especially to Miss lee , sorry .
I know you have high hope for me .
But .. :/

mummy was admitted to hospital yesterday .
discharge today le .
haha . Hope she wont take in anything wrong again x:
takecare mum (:

--

Elaine :
Not very okay .
And-very-not-okay.
Dont worry about me .

Caizhuang :
Okay .
Anytime when I'm free x:
miss you girl .

Huanglerling :
ya lo .
my mother too.
All of a sudden ah .
haha . She fine now already , still can shout x:
thanks for concern ah.
And your mum too .
Let her rest well (:
miss you !

我累了

2008-08-13T14:18:00.002+08:00

fuck the form teacher of mine .
you fucker, everything come towards me .
good thing here, you treat me good.
when things is not my fault, you fucking push the blame to me.
damn you.
but after today, you wont get good attitude from me.

I swear , at least I will use my life to finish this year schooling and get a N cert of mine.
But after this year , I think I wont be so silly and stay at that school which I fucking hate.
Im glad that you made that call and make me know my parents knows me.
This time , dad and mum talk to me.
I do tear out during the talk .
But , I think I should really follow what my heart goes .
And not listen to people talk.

If you think this is not last time the LIMSOCKKUAN .
YES(!) I can tell you . I changed . From bad to worse .
If you think that Im really bad , then I have no words to say and you can go ahead and stop the relationship between me and you.
No matter friendship/sistership/or whatever.

I really cannot take it le .
This is me , I cant changed to the people that you all wanted .
Im not perfect . 0% perfect .

如果你觉得我是个坏小孩，那你就把我当做是个吧。
对不起，我已尽量去当你们想要的我。
但我失败了，而已经不想再去试了。

--

Amirah :
My email : aishiteru.kisses@hotmail.com

Kaijun :
COUSIN !
You read my blog hurr . then didnt tag me till now -.-
yeah . At least from you people, I could find all these . (:

Chencaiyun :
Kay .
I think this will only last till this year ba.
Sigh .
Missing him more ? I have no idea.

Huanglerling :
OKAY DA XIAO JIE !
Lol .
Imy luis . And, ahting cant celebrate this Fri :/

为什么失眠的声音 ,变得好熟悉 .

2008-08-11T20:17:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Uncle's birthday yesterday.
Met up with my cousins :D
Meeting them make me feel that there's care and concern from family.
( I seems so Lol ._. )

Gonna celebrate Jiefu's birthday tomorrow .
And my dear sister Lim ahting's birthday on Friday .
So many people birthday nowadays hurr .
Not forgetting my sister XINYI's on 31th Aug .

--

School tomorrow ..
Boring ! I very very very tired leis .
People having holidays for national day this three day .
But I'm working all along ....
:/

Finally yesterday , I could sleep .
( I think so ah. )
But dad calling to wake up stop me from sleeping .
damn.
I going to die soon le !
Hais.
I feel so kiddy kiddy now D:

--

Your presence make my heart melt.
But, your absence make my heart sank.
Sigh.
Dote on me, will you ?
imissyou boy.

--

Elaine :
Sigh .
Idk le .
Takecare .

Yanshan ; Yaya :
The song is nice right ?
haha .
iloveitmans !

Chencaiyun :
are you suree fucker ?
awwws . call you out also dont want x:
imiss(him)you leis .
xD!

Adver :
o.o
I dont visit blogshop .

I felt helpless .

2008-08-08T23:12:00.004+08:00

I fuckingly know Imissyou like crazy .

我想你因为我爱你，可以吗?
我真的很无助。
难道真的要我每一晚都喝醉想着你？

And, congrats my Darl . (:

All the best, girl.

下雨天，我好想你

2008-08-08T16:46:00.002+08:00

下雨天

作词：Lara
作曲：张杰
演唱：Lara

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我等雨停
期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

--

The song Im listening over and over again now.
Thanks to Lh for recommending us . (:
The lyrics is so meaningful to me now :/
Hais .

Sometime now, Im thinking is this the time you wanted from me?
Or what is happening ?
I dont want what happened last time to repeat again?
I seem so dead.
You say this song is emo, but who made me this so ?
Maybe I should not blame you. Cos it's not concern you ?
But at least show me you care for me hao ma ?
I dont want what happen to me all the time to happen again.
I have twice past that I cant be with the guy I love.
I dont want you to be the third. :/

If you are really going to be the third.
Tell me , cos I know Im falling deeper and deeper now.
And, I dont wish to hear that it's me the one who not contacting you from your mouth.
I know myself this time that I have tried my best to make us contacting all times.
But, you just seems like you having the dont-care attitude to me.
Maybe I think too much .
I dont know .

I need to drink these night , to make myself sleep better.
But, sometimes I still cant even go to sleep.
If really , you think she is still in your heart or what.
Dont bluff me , tell me truefully , and I will know what to do.
Sigh .

爱你真的有这么难吗？

--

Caizhuang :
GIRL !
I just gone to your blog yesterday but didnt tag x:
haha !
Imissyou tooooooo luis .
:/

Im down .

2008-08-05T15:47:00.002+08:00

Im down again . :/
I dislike this month .
It make me feel so unsecure .
Sigh .

Going out with parents soon.
Takecare people.
All the best to people who gonna have prelims soon.

--

Huanglerling :
Okayokay . I didnt say I wanted too actually.
Imy sis .

Elaine :
Go watch then . haha (:
ILY babe !
Let hope for the better (!)*

华人七月了。

2008-08-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

Lunar 7th Month is here ..
Sigh :/
I'm having sleepness nights these days ..
Cant even totally fall asleep even Im very very tired.

Because of this, my mood wasnt good.
Unless, Im concentrating on something.
But last two days was bad(other than when Im playing mahjong).
I apologised for my moody moody mood D:
I hope tomorrow will be a good day !

OH ! And, Im watching Money Not Enough 2 on Tuesday with my parents, auntie and grandma.
At Vivo Gold Class :D:D
(Although Im the one treating with abit sponser by my sis, but as long as they are happy Im alright with it (: )
Excited yo .
But I haven catch Batman and Red cliff yet ! :/
SIGH !

Alright , school tomorrow . And heard that in focus has been stop alrdy.
Lol.
Takecare people.

--

Amirah :
YA ! My reflected twin sister hurr .

Lim :
Choo Limhwee .
HI ! :D
LOL !

--

想念和珍惜我们在一起的每一分每一秒。
我爱你 (:

我想你

2008-07-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

IMISSYOU , BOY !
:D:D:D:D

2008-07-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

o.o
Notice what have I change already people ?
hahahaha !
YUP (!) I change my hairstyle. I cut my hair.
Cut into the shortest within this four years you people have ever seen.

Lol. Cut last tuesday with mum. Didnt say it out cos wanna shock you people.
;DD
Quite satisfied with it anyways. It make me have a twin sister, Amirah my darling girl !
hehe.

Went to school today already.
Tiring day indeed. Help out for the CIP too at library after school.
Reached home late and did nothing much.
School tomorow.
Back to boring lifestyle again people ! :/

Anyways , HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNHUA !

--

Elaine & Jolene:
Alright. I cut my hair.
LOL!

--

boy , iloveyou ; imissyou (:
you're there when I need you.
thankyou so much <3

你永远在我们的记忆里

2008-07-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

Notice me when Im back school okay ? <3
haha .

--

I think after these days of spending my times with my love one.
I feel better, and I hope everyone feel better too.
Never will ahgirl be forgotten by us. She'll always stay in our hearts.
:D:D

I'll be back school on Monday already.
Rest assured this time I wont anyhow dont go school alrdy .
(Though I didnt anyhow always, got reason one okayy. Lol.)
I did something that I think my sisters and schoolmate have not see before x:
Dont be shock.

--

Elaine :
Imy tooo ! :D

Kevin :
Link you up soooon .
Takecare yeah.

Yanshan :
Thanks for your concern babe.
It's been long since we last met up.
Takecare yeah.

Huang Lerling :
You already left my house.
haha.
Thanks for accompany us this days, ahfu ! x:

你永远在我们的记忆里

2008-07-22T16:51:00.002+08:00

You've go ..
And you'll always stay in the memories of us.
Stay good and lovely up there.
iloveyou girl.

May God bless you and us.
<3

--

Yanshan:
Relink soon .

Elaine :
Better. (:

joycelyn:
Thanks jiejie.
:)

Huang lerling:
I know Iknow :]

记念。

2008-07-19T04:50:00.004+08:00

Alright. I cant believe myself to be blogging at this timing.
Time check : Saturday, 19 July 208 ; 4.51am

--

I should be at my working place with my dad and ahjie now.
But (!) Im down with fever in the middle of the night.
awwws ! :/
I went to find for panadol last night as I already having a headache.
And , I always know when I'm down with this "kinda" headache.
I will sure kenna Fever the next day.
damnit. D:

I woke up at 3.39am just now.
Didnt really get into sleep last night.
Was terribly having headache and feel cold and hot.
Wahlaooo. Its like my last "really" fall sick is when sehs ? Lol.
So get up and went downstair to ask my maid for panadol again.
This time, she found it -.-
I cant even see a sight of it last night luis .
Sigh .

Last night was up on bed quite early .
11plus ba .
Haven even 11.30pm lo .
SO , ITS NOT THAT I SLEEP LATE . Lol.

My dear sis , huang lerling and huang qifeng came up my house yesterday evening .
We slacked here and there and waited for my girl , huang leyin to come.
She reached at 7plus ?
They ate dinner with my parents this time with me sitting at the side looking at them.
(Cos Me , lerling and qifeng already ate earlier. And they went for second round. :D)
Talked alot this time. Hais .

Short and fast game of mahjong again.
Cos I told them to play fast this time xD .
And they went home at 11pm.

--

This is for Ng Lerling , Leyin and Qifeng :
Thank-you my dear . Thankyou for being with us when we are in this situation.
Thanks for always being there when I need you guys.
Whenever I'm alone, you guys never fail to keep me accompany.
Xiexie .

Elaine babe :
Darl , you are always there to be my listening ear no matter what happen.
Thankyou . I'm sorry that I could not accompany you this coming day.
(Due to Im down with fever.)
Whatever happened next time , we'll still keep this friendship going on.
(:

--

My dear girl :
Girl , the time is still here.
Sometime I really cant accept the facts.
But afterall , we dont want you to suffer. Forgive us for making this decision.
No matter what , you'll always be in the memories of us.
Especially your parent, bless them when you are being a angel okay ?
You are still our first lovely girl in our Family.
You are still the JIEJIE of next time your sibling.
Yi huo ni yao bang mang papa he mama haohao de dai chu didi he meimei .
Gugu will still love you.
Takecare , my dear angel girl.

--

Sigh. May God bless my Family .
I know I will be strong this coming tuesday.

--

Qunxiang :
Relink soon .

Huang lerling :
Thankyou so much.
Ily sis .

--

Time check : Same day ; 5.12am .

I think I should try to get into sleep now.
Goodnight people.

害怕。

2008-07-16T15:46:00.001+08:00

Im scared.
Real scared now.
Its seems like Im losing everything slowly .
Sigh .
我怕了。真的害怕了。
--

Out to study with friends later on.
Bye .

妒忌？

2008-07-14T18:25:00.004+08:00

I think alot these days ..
But the problem is , what am I thinking ?
I thinking what does I want right now ?
I dont know .
I just want Brother's daughter to get well soon .
Other than this ?
I really dont know.
I have already ruin half of my life now.
Lifeless freak . Agree?
Sigh .

I want to get back to studies.
But my mind and soul really cant concentrate.
Dont tell me is because of r/s . Because this definetly dont happen on me.
But I just dont know the reason.
I want to do alot of things but many things is stopping my way.
I dont know.
I dont know.
I really dont know.
Hais .

Jealousy do kills .
I admit I'm jealous this two days.
I keep telling myself I have no rights.
I really dont know what am I going to do next.
Or rather, what can I do.
This feeling really suck.
Maybe, someone can tell me.
But who will be the one? :/
你总是说是我想太多.
但是我阻止不了我自己不去想.
对不起, 但我爱你.

Tell me what to do right now ?
I have no direction.
My family is leading life that are so weird.
I just want everyone to be healthy and happy.
Just like other family , having family day and going out shopping together.
Playing together all these .
When ? when will this happen ?

--

Attend Lh's BBQ yesterday .
Great . I feel happy at the times.
It has been so long I last had fun with this group of friends.
Photos are taken .
But Im sorry I have no mood to post it out .
Takecare people .

--

Elaine :
:/ Takecare babe .

多么希望时间能停留

2008-07-11T02:57:00.002+08:00

How I wish time really could stop there.
This two days . My family and I are real close .
We had our so called "Family day".
It had been so 79307590348 days since we last been together like this .
Having fun together , laughing together , joking together , kidding together and all ..
Sigh .
Have not been attending school .
Though I dont really know will this let my parents down .
But after so many thing happen now.
I really want to spend much of my time with family and my love ones.

As for my dear little girl ,
it is really hurting for me to see you like that.
I just want you to be healthy like all others baby.
I dont want to see you suffering there , it really hurt my heart.
Sigh. When? When can I see you open your eye with a big smile ?
I miss the smile you gave us when you was just given birth.
I miss the times I fed you milk.
GET WELL SOON , my girl .

Now, I could really say .
I dont know how to manage my time already .
I have already mess up what is with me right now.

我真的希望你不会离开我。
只要你能在我身旁，不需要太近也不要太远。
我就心满意足了。
我爱你。

--

Huanglerling :
:DD

Chencaiyun :
How do I bear to bully you right, my F?
You are the one I dote so much leis.
haha. takecare in school hors.
Dont always let amirah bully you luis. haiyos .

Ahhao :
haha . I know just.
Just kidding only the previous time .
Anyways , thanks and you takecare tooo .
(:

假装是辛苦的

2008-07-08T21:03:00.004+08:00

I still cant get it .
Do I still have the interest in schooling ?
Oh my . But I must tell myself , I must have !
Because , Im the only one now in the family that they have hope in me.
Sigh . I felt stress at times .
One fact that alrdy shown , I didnt turn up for school again .
Partly it might be because of things that are happening now.
But .. sigh .

N level are around the corner .
I see people mugging already.
It make me remember those days that I once mug with my friends at KFC.
Will it or could it be happen again? Idk.

Days now are like passing meaning-less-ly .
I wanted to do so many things yet I cant .
I really hate this feeling . It made me so direction-less.
:/

School tomorrow.
I will force myself to be awake.
No worries friends , you'll see me tomorrow.
Unless you dont wish to.

--

Your presence and voice made me feel safe and glad .
Sometimes, I just hope time stay there.
But this will definetely not happen .
Coming back to the reality, you are still hers.
Sigh.
I still do give you my blessing.
iloveyou.

--

Elaine :
aisehs . hotpink mans.
you can consider . but not me x;
see you soon . (:
( maybe you can motivate me to study . haha )

Zhongsinling :
People thinks Im.
whatever. Sigh .
You takecare when at school studying hurr .
;]

Gurlspoiled :
Wow. A long tag you have for me.
I thanks you for comforting me too.
Thanks for willing to be there and listen to me.
I will attend school tomorrow. (:
But I could not bring back the old SK anymore.
She's gone sooner or later .
But I've tried to change .
Im still me afterall .
takecare .

世界到底是个地狱还是天堂？

2008-07-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

Alright, Im glad that I didnt fall sick after torturing by the sudden-come-flu.
These days or rather the day after I came back from Thailand.
Never there's one day I have enough sleep.
Sigh .
My panda eye is getting darker luis. D:

So long didnt blog out le.
:/
I seem that school does not be as important as last time to me anymore.
Why ? I feel so weird going school sometimes.
To be true, I think I feel better when Im outside school than in it.
School is going to equal ; a friendless city to me.
Idk why I feel this way..

All this time, I sometimes seem to be useless in other people eyes.
I dont get the reason why . I work so hard yet you people think its useless.
Treating people better, they tend to climb over me.
Sigh .
I have tried to look a the brighter side.
But whenever there's still things going through my mind.
I just try to stop it.

I thanks my family for standing by me and being united this time though many things is keep happening.
I hope we will get through this obstacle asap.
As for ahling, ahyin and qifeng.
Thank-you for you three brother and sister to be there and comfort me whenever Im down.
(:

As for my dear JIEYI ;
sometimes, gugu really felt I didnt do much to you.
I once fed you and carry you times to times, visited you almost daily.
But seeing you now, my heart really hurt .
get well soon okay ?? Sigh . Gugu love you my little girl.

Happy Youth Day people .*

--

Huanglerling :
Cheer up whenever you with me luis.
:D
your jokes never make me feel down but joy and lamme x:
loveyou sis.

Elaine :
imissssssssyou too my babe.
your bikini is still at my house !
haha . hmms. can consider tooo.
meet out soon ba :D
( Im sorry yesterday cant go out with you eh. )

Tag replies

2008-07-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

AH HAO :
Thanks ah , I will try to help you guys out as much as I could now.
But are you calling me just to take care cos to help you ? x:
haha .
Alright. Thanks for concern anyways .

Gurlspoiled :
Imissyou too DE !
((:
Like that I should let you sit my place more hurr ?
So that you could release your own feeling .
haha .
Takecare !

Sean :
Hmms.
Should ask ahhao about it more ?
He knows more than me.
:]
Takecare yeah.

Thailand, Chiangmai have been missed .

为何事情会变得如此

2008-07-02T20:25:00.003+08:00

Sorry people.
Due to some family problems nowadays.

I wont update my blog for the period of time.
Duibuqi .

But still do tag me if miss me .

--

Lerling :
Sis , IMY toooo :DD
Anyways, I relink you already !

Farhanie :
Imissyou tooo girl.
Do takecare .

Im down .

2008-06-22T22:25:00.003+08:00

wahlaoooooooooooo.

I still cant believe school start tomorrow .....
:/ (!)

EHEH !
I didnt enjoy dao my holidays leis , not enough rest lo .
eyer !
Not fair luis .
):

Lim Ahsock is SAD D: !

--

Zhongsinling :
o.o
and its tomorrow alrdy :/
less than 24hours .

Sean :
haha ! just kidding yo .
sec 3 life is better than sec 4 .
better enjoy it now . and you gonna suffer next year .
:/

Unsolved .

2008-06-17T21:37:00.003+08:00

Alright , this will be a post of my whinning .
Do not read if you , yourself have any problem !

--

Life is not as easy as we think already .
Everything happening now is totally a big attack to everyone .
People around me and myself are facing problem everyday .
Especially my closed one , but those problem are all so big .
So big that we cant solve it so easily .
Sigh ..

Why are everything happening at this point of time .
School reopening soon , facing books with teachers face is gonna start again .
(I bet I wont even have the mood or whatever-it-is to study , but I try to do my best)

Forgive me for being stupid at times.
I know my jokes or whatever stupid movement I have done is really DUMB !
But its just to make myself and you people happy :/
I know it is oh-so-fake .

Now , I myself need to have times to think of many things .
But its still all unsolve with no solution .

it just feel so fucktard .

--

REPLYS TO TAG FOR EVERYONE :
Im sorry for not replying your tag in short time .
Do tag me again .

--

Dedication for some of them :

Elainechan :
Darling , Cheer up okay .
Family problems are happening to me now too .
But its some weird thing ? :/
Any problem you could still give me a call kays !
or , come over my house . (:

Huangleyin :
Sister , be happy !
I know days now are difficult for you .
but try your very best to live your life with laughter and joy .
Though people always say , everything could be solve .
but I know its still difficult for us :/
just remember this (!)
: 爱情是不能让也是让不了的.
this is always the sentence to make myself feel better.
and remember .
At anytime when you have any problem , just text me or a call .
I try my best to be there for you . ILY (:

:
Sometime , I really do not know who are you to me now .
but please do not think you are not important to me .
cos you always are to me . everythings you say now means alot to me .
I never know will I still able to listen all these in future .
But just promised me to live your life properly .
remember I still love you boy .
though I felt I might have sorry to "her".
:/

--

I dont care how people things of me now .
And how much you people think Im stupid or what .
but I just cant stop my love for him.
though sometimes I might think Im the third party .
but I m just SORRRY!
我会等。对不起，我做不到当你叫我不要等。

--

Elaine , thanks for yesterday .
I somehow feel abit better after listening to your advice and comment .
takecare .

顺起自然

2008-06-12T22:34:00.002+08:00

alright . this post might be specially for Miracle Network '2008 people .

Hey guys .
Im looking forward to our gathering tomorrow (:
Heard that many people going for this and some could not turn up .
nevermind hurr , there's always many times .
Though I might not be the main organiser for this .
neither I have help you guys to plan .
I hereby apologised hurr .
have been busy with stuffs .

Anyways ! if you have found out my blog .
DO TAG ME AND LINK ME :D
haha .

--

This is for my Exponential 25 '2007 peeps !

HELLO !
you guys have not been forgotten by me too hurr !
dont think that I am such people that new things come and I forgot old things .
NO WAY !
Our precious memorise we have been through last year is still in my heart .
If I have a time . will be making a gathering yeah ?
but some of our SEC 4 Express student will be a difficulties .
they are having their O this year .
ALL THE BEST ! :D

--

Alright . I have not been having enough sleep till from the time Im back from Chiangmai :/
Been busying with my sister-in-law .
SHE GAVE BIRTH TO A BABY GIRL !
haha . and Im old again D:
LOL .
Will post the photos up when Im free .

--

Huanglerling :
haha . I told you the reason already okay ..
:D:D
miss you too .
looking forward to our genting trip next week ?
(:

Gurl Spoiled :
Amirah hurr ? x:
I miss Thailand , Chiangmai tooo .
we have spent so much fun and laugther there !

Sean :
haha . okay ..
tag you ! and will link you up soon :D

2008-06-09T22:39:00.003+08:00

YO PEOPLE !
Im back since yesterday night .
But was really tired to update .
and ! Im still tired now cos I didnt get much sleep till .
every thing happen after Im back :/
wont not be updating yet as I didnt have any much of the photos .
I didnt took much photos tooo .
waiting for my lovely team mate to send me :D

I miss thailand,chaingmai .
There's no stress and worries there . :/
But I know time could not be rewind .
I miss you guys , Miracle Network ' 2008 (:

Im in a no-direction condition right now .
Sigh .
But I know I will be strong .
And , i will wait .
though I dont know how long I could wait .
But this moment . I know I will .

--

REPLY TO EVERYONE :
I MISS YOU PEOPLE TOOOO !
LOVE YOU ALL :D

我走了，再见

2008-05-31T21:49:00.003+08:00

Bye people !
Im leaving tomorrow alrdy .
But I bet I wont go online D:
Cos I need to reach school at 11.45am or before .
Then that means I need to wake up early and get ready .

TAG ME IF YOU MISS ME ! :D:D

; Remember all my dearest ones , All of you will be deeply missed by me !
ILOVEYOU :D

Takecare ! <3

--

Chencaiyun :
Nothing , I will miss you my fucker :/

Yingxiu :
Dont know leis . maybe your blog dont like me .
haha !

顺起自然

2008-05-30T22:08:00.002+08:00

Last meeting held today before we leaving ..
But Im still disappointed with the attendance we have .
never one time will our attendance have 32/32 .
only once . which is when teacher have short listed them out .
Sigh . I dont want to say this . But I miss Exponential 25 alot !

--

Went out in the evening with sisters just now .
had dinner together at Ramen Ten .
Nice ((:
then went to shopped around . and , I bought myself a dress which cost me a BOMB .
LOL !
after that , me and xinyi sis jui take taxi down to Loyang temple .
pray and took cab back .
:D:D
Feel much better after praying (:

--

Chencaiyun :
dont idoit leis .
not because of you lo . asshole .
call you out also wont come out one . urghs . angry you !

Elaine :
then i put back Elaine then (:
hmms . i dont know how to say but its all mixed up.
after praying today , I feel much better alrdy (:
love you babe !
(*p/s : I am flying on the 1st June which is this Sunday)

Zhongxinling :
haha . Okay , better than *someone* who is still considering .
LOL !
thanks sis :D

Huanglerling :
YOU HAVE BEEN DEEPLY MISSED BY ME LUIS !
haiyer , better let me see your face once Im back mans !
take lots of care okay .
help me tell your sis tooo :D
love you !

2008-05-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

I got the scared out of my life today .
Mummy , please (!) dont make this happen again .
Everyone is searching for you up and downs .

--

Sigh . was really scared, helpless and hopeless .
forget it . everything is so not right luis .

And today trip to Singapore Flyer is fun .
thats all (:

2008-05-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

I am leaving in 4days time .
But I do not feel excited at all . Not like last year .
Sigh .
I scared after I came back from the trip , everything will change .

I am really scared .
But no one have given me any confident yet where I think that no one could gave me .
Cos I just need yours .
get it ? I am dumb .
Alright ! Dumb in everything .

Forget it . If anything happen within this trip to me .
I think .. no one will care about it then .

--

Yingxiu :
YA ! I using internet explorer .

Chanyeelim :
I have no idea .

Chencaiyun :
fucker . you made me T_T again .

我想你到快要疯了

2008-05-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

I MISS THOSE TIMES LUIS .

those times we spent together laughing in a groups.
those times we joke like nobody business .
those times we act or be serious talking .
those times we are together .

but times just pass so fast that I think things going to change .
maybe or maybe not .
To me , time do not really heal anything .
Let try to take it easy then .

imissyoulikecrazy .

--

Chencaiyun :
I am gald that you are fine then ,
sucker .
xD okay luis .
ILY , okay ? x:

Zhongsinling :
hms. I hope so ?
;D
I hate this life currently I think ?
ohoh . But , I do still treasure every min and sec of it .

Yingxiu :
no luis .
I only got this mans .
anyways . I hate your blog -.-
cant read anything de ! D:

为何事情会变得如此

2008-05-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

whatthehells -.-
I just type out a post and publish it . and it say error D:
means I got to retype everything again .

--

Finally, chinese intensive lesson is over .
tomorrow will be one last discussion lesson which only last one hour .
then we can go home alrdy (:

Next Monday I will be having my GCE O'Level Chinese
Next Wednesday will be having my F&N practical exam
and lastly , I will be leaving for my CIP trip next Sunday.

I hoped everything will changed before I leave . Sigh :/

I seriously dislike some people attitude .
friends , buddy , non-friends ?
I just dislike it , it seem so sucky to me .

went Gaint with ahtan after school today .
crap with her all the way .
then came home raining -.-

will be going there again tomorrow to buy things .
Yays . mummy will be sponsering me for whatever I going to buy for my trip (:

我好想你

2008-05-21T23:22:00.005+08:00

4 month pass ..
Never had us didnt contact for so long .
Days passes just like that .
It might be passing fast with the presence of you and your voice .
But without you , it just pass so slow for me .
Sigh .
Idk whats happening right now .
Since that day , everything seems so weird .
Nothing had happened.
But things just slowly changed .
Whenever I feel down . I just dont know what to do .
But that day , Im feeling damn pekchek and down .
And I thought it wont not be nice to see you .
But I,myself also didnt know why .. that your presence that appears in front of me just make me smile .
just make my day being brighten up .
your call the day after make me had a shock .
but , its just some things that dosent really concern about me .
hais .

how are you doing now boy ?
I really miss you so .

my confident seems to be like getting lesser ):

--

is this how I maintain a realationship ?
friends , buddy , family , sisters , brothers and everything .
I dreamt of school last night and I teared after waking up .
Sigh . I think Im really being stressed out .
Im tired of everything .
There's no way for me to vent out my anger anyways.

how are everyone ?
I seems to be being so close yet so far away from everyone :/

--

???????????? Ni Zui Jing Hai Hao Ma [??????Piano Version] - Instrumental

2008-05-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

Sigh .
Im tired .
Mentally and physically .

--

Zhongsinling :
you too .

Huanglerling :
alright .

Elainechan :
yeahs. Its nice (:

2008-05-15T17:48:00.003+08:00

Ohoh .
Im currently at my cousin house right now ((:
since long I step in here hurr .
hehe .

Alright . Wasnt feeling right staying home.
Feeling damn pekchek with dont-know-why-reason.
just dont feel like staying home .
So, actually wanted to catch a movie with ahling and her friends.
But timing was too late for me .
Scared my parents will naggggg . So didnt .
Next time round sis ? :D

Then walk to Simei and meet up with sisterLING and Jolene instead.
had our lunch there and then took train off that place .
lene alighted at Tamp while ling and I alight at Pasir ris (:
hehe . taking 21 down to cousin house .

GREAT ! Both cousin catching "Accuracy of death" with me later on ;DD
A sudden thought of calling them out and catch the movie with me .
hehe :DD

(Oh. And , I just got back the result from sister that I only pass my English, Chinese and Chem -.- .
Expected it luis . :/ )

--

Zhongsinling :
HAHA ! Chilling in process ? LOL

2008-05-13T23:13:00.005+08:00

Its my sisterLING too yo ! :D:D YOOHOO !

My baby haven leave me tonight oh .
As I requested to my sister . hehe .
But it is still gonna leave me tomorrow morning ):

Alright . Wake up early today . Cant get back to sleep .
Meet up with sisterLING early tooo , as she tio dua by Mdm warda ..
then went Tamp Mall and have lunch with ahyun .
so qiao he at there . then met up for awhile .

Trained down to Orchard , far east .
Nothing caught our eye . Keep looking out for heels though .

Trained down to Bugis again . Cause meeting sisterXINYI and she dont want to go far .
Walk around street and juntion then she went home alrdy .
wasnt feeling good by then . TAKECARE HURR SIS !

(Alright . I admit Im a pakjiao !
I cant even saw you but my sis saw -.-
really need a eye check again . )

Then went to slack at Yoshinoya for like an hour .
talk around to waste our time . TIME PASS SO SLOW LUIS ! D:
then walk to foodcourt and have our meal there .

after dinner , walk down to the sony shop there and find ahjie and jiefu .
there are there to send ahjie laptop to service .
went arcade to play after that . LOL !
ahjie play like siao luis . haha .
that yeahs ! got something back . haha

after that . walk sisterLING to mrt station and she went back .
pick yunfu up too . walk back to pasta mania together with ahjie and jiefu .
funny talk we have there ((:
and this four person are crazy (include me) , they went to walk at bugis street after eating .

then trained home after that and ahjie and jiefu went down hougang .
home sweet home :D
need to go back school tomorrow again . :/

The 4 crazy person .. :D
Lin Shujun
Low Weiying
Lawrenz Quek

Lin Shufang

Zhongsinling : haha . ya lo ! TIME PASS SO SLOW ............... -.-

生日快乐, MOM .

2008-05-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

Actually ..
There's nothing much about today and yesterday .
Just that ..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY ; XINYI's DAJIE and Vincent .

haha . They actually born on the same date but different year .
so qiao hurr . haha .

Went study after work with miao and elaine darl yesterday .
Great day with them . Took many pictures together yeahs .
ilovethem (:

Left around 7 and went up to auntie house and have dinner .
was so tired that I came home and fall asleep .

And ! Im cleared from exam for the time being already :D:D:D
Had my last mid year paper today .
Freaking hyper after paper yeah .
hehehehe .
I can enjoy myself for the time . (:
came home after that .

Will be going out and have dinner for mummy birthday .
:D:D

--

Bye bye baby . ):
You are leaving me tomorrow evening .
Im sad .

--

Wont be able to blog this coming week .
Sorryyyyyyyyy . /:

2008-05-12T17:26:00.004+08:00

110508 / HAPPY MOTHDAY DAY !

Study with miao and elaine darl during afternoon .

Photos !

ILOVEYOU GIRLS TOO ! xD

生日快乐, 朋友.

2008-05-12T17:11:00.002+08:00

Alright .
Heres the post for last Friday then .

Ended my paper around 10 plus that day .
Its early mans . And , so shuang :D
hehe .
Came home changed and went down to toapayoh .
Daddy wanted to treat grandma for mother day .
And we ate at some coffee shop as there's like nowhere to go .
Cause after that I need to leave early and meet up with my friends.
Aunties and uncles are there tooo .
Cousin not there anyways . Exam period too .

Left at 2PLUS from toapayoh .
Borrow a sonyerisson earpiece from uncle .
thanks luis . return you soon alright .

Trained down to City hall .
Meet all of them up there include my sisters .
Abel , Vincent , Cezhong , Teckkwee and Abel's cousin are there too .
Main lead of that day : Abel and Vincent .
Both celebrating their birthday hurr . haha .

But Im so sorry that my sisters and I went MIA after meeting up with them .
We went and do some self shopping for friends and while doing so ..
I bought Abel's present , its a shirt . A damn chio shirt . OPPS !
The design of a shoe luis . Its COOOL ! x:

After so , went to booked seats at swensens as we having our dinner there .
Great ! Before that , went to have some photos taking session with sisters . ((:
Had our full full dinner too . With present for Vincent from We , the 3 sisters .
A Cake ((: .

Trained home after dinner .
Actually intend to go down esplanade.
But sisterLING need to reach home early . So , next time hurr ;DD

2008-05-12T16:38:00.005+08:00

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PHOTOS !
We take a life time to continue our sistership ..
Iloveyou girls so .

Photo-taking session at Suntec :D:D

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO BOTH ABEL HO & VINCENT GOH ((: !

Hehe . Let me end this photos post with my picture of that day ! :D

Love & Trust .

Dont feel good.

:>

Weet-oh-weet.

I'm BACK !

Those little dedication.

我好想我的正常生活。

人，好难过

好HIGH哦。

好开心.

好无聊。

好想念你们。

祝我生日快乐。

Tag replies.

我依然相信你。

了解？

疑惑

恶梦。

我的心好痛。我的心好烦。

好开心哦！

生命真的好脆弱

让我们把想念收在心里。

我会快乐的。

你们真的走了。

我好想你们

朋友，我想你们！

决定。

为何我终是顺着你们，我也不知道。

我累了

为什么失眠的声音 ,变得好熟悉 .

I felt helpless .

下雨天 ，我好想你

Im down .

华人七月了。

我想你

你永远在我们的记忆里

你永远在我们的记忆里

记念。

害怕。

妒忌？

多么希望时间能停留

假装是辛苦的

世界到底是个地狱还是天堂？

Tag replies

为何事情会变得如此

Im down .

Unsolved .

顺起自然

我走了，再见

顺起自然

我想你到快要疯了

为何事情会变得如此

我好想你

生日快乐, MOM .

生日快乐, 朋友.

下雨天，我好想你