o.o
Notice what have I change already people ?
hahahaha !
YUP (!) I change my hairstyle. I cut my hair.
Cut into the shortest within this four years you people have ever seen.

Lol. Cut last tuesday with mum. Didnt say it out cos wanna shock you people.
;DD
Quite satisfied with it anyways. It make me have a twin sister, Amirah my darling girl !
hehe.

Went to school today already.
Tiring day indeed. Help out for the CIP too at library after school.
Reached home late and did nothing much.
School tomorow.
Back to boring lifestyle again people ! :/

Anyways , HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNHUA !

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Elaine & Jolene:
Alright. I cut my hair.
LOL!

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boy , iloveyou ; imissyou (:
you're there when I need you.
thankyou so much <3

Notice me when Im back school okay ? <3
haha .

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I think after these days of spending my times with my love one.
I feel better, and I hope everyone feel better too.
Never will ahgirl be forgotten by us. She'll always stay in our hearts.
:D:D

I'll be back school on Monday already.
Rest assured this time I wont anyhow dont go school alrdy .
(Though I didnt anyhow always, got reason one okayy. Lol.)
I did something that I think my sisters and schoolmate have not see before x:
Dont be shock.

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Elaine :
Imy tooo ! :D

Kevin :
Link you up soooon .
Takecare yeah.

Yanshan :
Thanks for your concern babe.
It's been long since we last met up.
Takecare yeah.

Huang Lerling :
You already left my house.
haha.
Thanks for accompany us this days, ahfu ! x:

You've go ..
And you'll always stay in the memories of us.
Stay good and lovely up there.
iloveyou girl.

May God bless you and us.
<3

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Yanshan:
Relink soon .

Elaine :
Better. (:

joycelyn:
Thanks jiejie.
:)

Huang lerling:
I know Iknow :]

Alright. I cant believe myself to be blogging at this timing.
Time check : Saturday, 19 July 208 ; 4.51am

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I should be at my working place with my dad and ahjie now.
But (!) Im down with fever in the middle of the night.
awwws ! :/
I went to find for panadol last night as I already having a headache.
And , I always know when I'm down with this "kinda" headache.
I will sure kenna Fever the next day.
damnit. D:

I woke up at 3.39am just now.
Didnt really get into sleep last night.
Was terribly having headache and feel cold and hot.
Wahlaooo. Its like my last "really" fall sick is when sehs ? Lol.
So get up and went downstair to ask my maid for panadol again.
This time, she found it -.-
I cant even see a sight of it last night luis .
Sigh .

Last night was up on bed quite early .
11plus ba .
Haven even 11.30pm lo .
SO , ITS NOT THAT I SLEEP LATE . Lol.

My dear sis , huang lerling and huang qifeng came up my house yesterday evening .
We slacked here and there and waited for my girl , huang leyin to come.
She reached at 7plus ?
They ate dinner with my parents this time with me sitting at the side looking at them.
(Cos Me , lerling and qifeng already ate earlier. And they went for second round. :D)
Talked alot this time. Hais .

Short and fast game of mahjong again.
Cos I told them to play fast this time xD .
And they went home at 11pm.

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This is for Ng Lerling , Leyin and Qifeng :
Thank-you my dear . Thankyou for being with us when we are in this situation.
Thanks for always being there when I need you guys.
Whenever I'm alone, you guys never fail to keep me accompany.
Xiexie .

Elaine babe :
Darl , you are always there to be my listening ear no matter what happen.
Thankyou . I'm sorry that I could not accompany you this coming day.
(Due to Im down with fever.)
Whatever happened next time , we'll still keep this friendship going on.
(:

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My dear girl :
Girl , the time is still here.
Sometime I really cant accept the facts.
But afterall , we dont want you to suffer. Forgive us for making this decision.
No matter what , you'll always be in the memories of us.
Especially your parent, bless them when you are being a angel okay ?
You are still our first lovely girl in our Family.
You are still the JIEJIE of next time your sibling.
Yi huo ni yao bang mang papa he mama haohao de dai chu didi he meimei .
Gugu will still love you.
Takecare , my dear angel girl.

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Sigh. May God bless my Family .
I know I will be strong this coming tuesday.

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Qunxiang :
Relink soon .

Huang lerling :
Thankyou so much.
Ily sis .

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Time check : Same day ; 5.12am .

I think I should try to get into sleep now.
Goodnight people.

Im scared.
Real scared now.
Its seems like Im losing everything slowly .
Sigh .
我怕了。真的害怕了。
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Out to study with friends later on.
Bye .

I think alot these days ..
But the problem is , what am I thinking ?
I thinking what does I want right now ?
I dont know .
I just want Brother's daughter to get well soon .
Other than this ?
I really dont know.
I have already ruin half of my life now.
Lifeless freak . Agree?
Sigh .

I want to get back to studies.
But my mind and soul really cant concentrate.
Dont tell me is because of r/s . Because this definetly dont happen on me.
But I just dont know the reason.
I want to do alot of things but many things is stopping my way.
I dont know.
I dont know.
I really dont know.
Hais .

Jealousy do kills .
I admit I'm jealous this two days.
I keep telling myself I have no rights.
I really dont know what am I going to do next.
Or rather, what can I do.
This feeling really suck.
Maybe, someone can tell me.
But who will be the one? :/
你总是说是我想太多.
但是我阻止不了我自己不去想.
对不起, 但我爱你.

Tell me what to do right now ?
I have no direction.
My family is leading life that are so weird.
I just want everyone to be healthy and happy.
Just like other family , having family day and going out shopping together.
Playing together all these .
When ? when will this happen ?

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Attend Lh's BBQ yesterday .
Great . I feel happy at the times.
It has been so long I last had fun with this group of friends.
Photos are taken .
But Im sorry I have no mood to post it out .
Takecare people .

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Elaine :
:/ Takecare babe .

How I wish time really could stop there.
This two days . My family and I are real close .
We had our so called "Family day".
It had been so 79307590348 days since we last been together like this .
Having fun together , laughing together , joking together , kidding together and all ..
Sigh .
Have not been attending school .
Though I dont really know will this let my parents down .
But after so many thing happen now.
I really want to spend much of my time with family and my love ones.

As for my dear little girl ,
it is really hurting for me to see you like that.
I just want you to be healthy like all others baby.
I dont want to see you suffering there , it really hurt my heart.
Sigh. When? When can I see you open your eye with a big smile ?
I miss the smile you gave us when you was just given birth.
I miss the times I fed you milk.
GET WELL SOON , my girl .

Now, I could really say .
I dont know how to manage my time already .
I have already mess up what is with me right now.

我真的希望你不会离开我。
只要你能在我身旁，不需要太近也不要太远。
我就心满意足了。
我爱你。

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Huanglerling :
:DD

Chencaiyun :
How do I bear to bully you right, my F?
You are the one I dote so much leis.
haha. takecare in school hors.
Dont always let amirah bully you luis. haiyos .

Ahhao :
haha . I know just.
Just kidding only the previous time .
Anyways , thanks and you takecare tooo .
(:

I still cant get it .
Do I still have the interest in schooling ?
Oh my . But I must tell myself , I must have !
Because , Im the only one now in the family that they have hope in me.
Sigh . I felt stress at times .
One fact that alrdy shown , I didnt turn up for school again .
Partly it might be because of things that are happening now.
But .. sigh .

N level are around the corner .
I see people mugging already.
It make me remember those days that I once mug with my friends at KFC.
Will it or could it be happen again? Idk.

Days now are like passing meaning-less-ly .
I wanted to do so many things yet I cant .
I really hate this feeling . It made me so direction-less.
:/

School tomorrow.
I will force myself to be awake.
No worries friends , you'll see me tomorrow.
Unless you dont wish to.

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Your presence and voice made me feel safe and glad .
Sometimes, I just hope time stay there.
But this will definetely not happen .
Coming back to the reality, you are still hers.
Sigh.
I still do give you my blessing.
iloveyou.

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Elaine :
aisehs . hotpink mans.
you can consider . but not me x;
see you soon . (:
( maybe you can motivate me to study . haha )

Zhongsinling :
People thinks Im.
whatever. Sigh .
You takecare when at school studying hurr .
;]

Gurlspoiled :
Wow. A long tag you have for me.
I thanks you for comforting me too.
Thanks for willing to be there and listen to me.
I will attend school tomorrow. (:
But I could not bring back the old SK anymore.
She's gone sooner or later .
But I've tried to change .
Im still me afterall .
takecare .

Alright, Im glad that I didnt fall sick after torturing by the sudden-come-flu.
These days or rather the day after I came back from Thailand.
Never there's one day I have enough sleep.
Sigh .
My panda eye is getting darker luis. D:

So long didnt blog out le.
:/
I seem that school does not be as important as last time to me anymore.
Why ? I feel so weird going school sometimes.
To be true, I think I feel better when Im outside school than in it.
School is going to equal ; a friendless city to me.
Idk why I feel this way..

All this time, I sometimes seem to be useless in other people eyes.
I dont get the reason why . I work so hard yet you people think its useless.
Treating people better, they tend to climb over me.
Sigh .
I have tried to look a the brighter side.
But whenever there's still things going through my mind.
I just try to stop it.

I thanks my family for standing by me and being united this time though many things is keep happening.
I hope we will get through this obstacle asap.
As for ahling, ahyin and qifeng.
Thank-you for you three brother and sister to be there and comfort me whenever Im down.
(:

As for my dear JIEYI ;
sometimes, gugu really felt I didnt do much to you.
I once fed you and carry you times to times, visited you almost daily.
But seeing you now, my heart really hurt .
get well soon okay ?? Sigh . Gugu love you my little girl.

Happy Youth Day people .*

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Huanglerling :
Cheer up whenever you with me luis.
:D
your jokes never make me feel down but joy and lamme x:
loveyou sis.

Elaine :
imissssssssyou too my babe.
your bikini is still at my house !
haha . hmms. can consider tooo.
meet out soon ba :D
( Im sorry yesterday cant go out with you eh. )

AH HAO :
Thanks ah , I will try to help you guys out as much as I could now.
But are you calling me just to take care cos to help you ? x:
haha .
Alright. Thanks for concern anyways .

Gurlspoiled :
Imissyou too DE !
((:
Like that I should let you sit my place more hurr ?
So that you could release your own feeling .
haha .
Takecare !

Sean :
Hmms.
Should ask ahhao about it more ?
He knows more than me.
:]
Takecare yeah.

Thailand, Chiangmai have been missed .

Sorry people.
Due to some family problems nowadays.

I wont update my blog for the period of time.
Duibuqi .

But still do tag me if miss me .

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Lerling :
Sis , IMY toooo :DD
Anyways, I relink you already !

Farhanie :
Imissyou tooo girl.
Do takecare .

Joanne Lim
eightteen on 29/09 .
简单又平凡的女人.
Email me at : aishiteru.kisses@hotmail.com
A crew at Universal Studio Singapore! :D