Hope I'm still not late yet .

Happy Birthday Goh XINYI ! (:

--

Sigh.
Jiefu's ahma pass away today.
Receive the msg upon the call during work.
Why ?
People leaving the world.
But Im glad to heard that she left with a smile.
Hope she'll rest in peace.
Life seems to be so fragile to me now.
I promised , I will treasure everyone from now onwards.

Nothing much.
But dad and mum going oversea tomorrow.
Home will be left only with me and maids.
sis will be coming over and accompany me.
If not I will sure nua at home myself and anyhow think :/

I want to revamp my room soon !
And oh , I told mum to buy me Guess bag when she's at airport.
I will waiting for their return ! :D:D
And hmm , 一路顺风.
Though I'm quite boring of cannot join them . T.T

--

男孩，你生我的气吗？
我想你。
当我伤心难过的时候，我好想你在我身边。

The feeling is just so weird without you two in the group. :/

--

Woke up early in the morning today.
Rush to school for nothing. Damn.
Then cab down to Witaya's house and meet his brothers.

Went to pray for Witaya and Chanhong today.
I feel so glad going to see him.
I'm so scared that chance will get less to visit them when they are just gone like that.
I hope they enjoy the enviroment they are at now.
I hope they are happy right now.
I hope they are still not forgetting about us.
x:

Alright.
Afterwards, went back Witaya house and have lunch and headed down to Chanhong house.
Until when it's time we came back witaya house and fetch uncle and ahmei down to grandlink.
I hope their brothers are feeling well now.
And jingying and valerie ..
Cheer up guys.
让我们把想念收在心里。

Then headed back home around 8plus.
Thanks uncle for the night ! (:
Received msg and heard that dad isnt happy.
:/
Sigh.

--

And oh.
Once again , sorry sis.
I give you a belated celebration kay.
(:

--

Tag replied :
Okay. I will (:

I know I've to go on with my life now.
But still , give me time to shiyin that they are not here with us.
I wont forget them , never.
I couldnt possiblely forget about them within a few days.
I still need times.

And oh please , do not ask me about their cause of death.
I dont know.
Asking me only will make me tear.
And dont ask me weather the newspaper are speaking true anot.
It totally a different story.
Sigh.
If you guys really think so , then dont even ask about it.

I tried my really best to live properly now.
Dont worry.
I know they dont want everyone of us to be like that.
takecare.

Gonna meet their brother tomorrow.
And, Im sorry if I really cant help xinyi to celebrate her birthday.
I hope you understand, sis.
I really not in the mood :/
Sigh .
I hope to give you a belated one?

--

Tag replied :
I'll cheer up.
Its just a matter of time.
Thanks for concern. (:

Went to Witaya's wake early in morning today.
Sigh.
The minute I was awake, my heart goes "Today is the day. The day Witaya will be gone, forever."

Went in to see him quite a number of times.
Couldnt bear to see him go just like that. :/
But today again , I still felt that he's eye is going to open.
Imisshimso.
Stayed in with all his brothers and sisters around him.
Sing song for him and talk to him and joke with him.
Sigh. That the last time we're able to see his face.
The face that will etched in my mind, forever.
Memories from him will never be erased .

Tampinese Secondary people came.
Everyone pay him a last respect.
Most of them teared . Which I told myself , I cant .
I should let him go peacefully.
But when its time the coffin going to be pushed in to burn.
The moment , I shouted "WITAYA" in my heart and shout it out silently.
I cant control my tears. It just rolled down and hurts my heart alot.
The moment, everythings just run through my mind.
Every times that is spent with him.

I'm sorry. I didnt keep my promise not to cry.
And break it at the last minute.
Sigh.
IMISSYOU,WITAYA!
Went to Chanhong's , the place they place him.
Talk to him awhile .
Imissyoutoo, chanhong !

Everything ended at 4pm.

Now, I hope both of you are together up there and being happy.
Nothing could describe how much I misses you guys.

朋友！我好想你们！

Went to Witaya's side today .
Sigh. He just left us like that.
Without saying anything.
I cant believe you guys are gone , forever.
I cant believe it until I see witaya lying there.
Seeing his handsome and cute face made me know, you are gone forever.
But I sence that you're just sleeping and you'll wake up.
I see that your eye will open again.
You tried to talk to us.
But it's all so impossible alrdy.

Chanhong have go. Never be back anymore.
But your soul will always stays in our heart, together with witaya.
Imissyouguys, remember this.
我们有缘的话，相信来世我们还会做回好朋友。

Seeing their family , my heart really break.
All we can do is just to help them if they need us.
Pray for them to rest well .

Ahma & auntie ,
you two must stay strong , witaya will be happy if you guys are happy.

And I believe ,
all of your brother will always remember the brother-hood you guys have gone through.
Sigh.
Rest well.

--

Tag Replied :
thanks for concern.
(:

This post is specially for my two haopengyou ; Ku Witaya and Sia Chanhong.

Everything happen so sudden.

Guys, if you're able to see this.
Remember one important point , imissyou people !
Sigh . I miss the presence of you two people making people around you to be happy.
Consoling people when they are down and using many ways to make them happy.
Remember times I see all of you being together with others brother.
You people joke all under the moon like nobody business.

Witaya , the guy standing behind me. I remember everything from we first knew each other during Secondary one.
how you took number from me and joking with me.
how cheerful you are all the years down.
how you and your brothers came my house to accompany when my parent gone oversea.
how you celebrate my birthday last year for me, I called you to stay and you stay overnight.
how you once joke and called me maomei and those sweet things.
though it's all joke, but it's still the memories you gave me.
I remember during Secondary 1 , we skipped school and went Pula Ubin.
I remember last year, we skipped school and went East Coast Park and then to Kbox.
how you console me when I dont feel good.
how we played during the times at school.
there's once I called you stop piaking my nose, but you refuse.
I miss the times.
But I know, all this will stay in the memories of you to me now.
Rest well boy , imissyou .

Chanhong,
CHEERFUL GUY !
WO XIANG NI!
You must stay happy and cheerful up there too okay , promise us.
I miss your smile that always will be stick on your face.
I miss those joke you made of jolene.
I always keep repeating remember the day you came my house to study.
I miss how sometimes I speak to you of my xin shi .
Though I know you through Sinling , I still know you since Secondary 1.
I remember how cute of you when you act cute.
But you are really cute.
Do stay happy up there and rest well together with witaya.
Imissyou boy.

You two will stay handsome and cheerful and cute inside our heart no matter what.
I still cant accept the fact that you guy have leave us but this is a reality.
Sigh . I will miss you people.
You two will stay in the memories of mine .

--

Why is this happening to me ?
One month ago , my niece .
One month later , my two haopengyou.

Must Year2008 be like this to me?
Sigh. I hope everything will come to a full stop.
Im breaking down.
I dont have the mood for anything now.
Hais :/

Treasure whoever is with you now.
Love them no matter are they the opposite sex of yours.
Tell them iloveyou truefully if you really love them.

Sigh .
I feel so lost right now.
Currently thinking :
我好想发神精一次。

Seems so dead right now.
Everythings comes and goes, but it just dont seem right.
:/

I'm really glad that dad and mum understand what Im thinking now.
And that they didnt look down on me even though this decision is so ...
But to others around , if my decision make you feel that you have such a stupid friend.
Then Im so sorry. Im such a stupid person.

And to people(friends) in my school :
Dont you people think my relationship with you people are getting thinner and thinner.
Sometimes, there isnt any words that is going between us.
I feel that Im so "out" of you people.
Or even , some sort of disturbing you people.
Hais.

For now, my only direction is to finish up my N this year.
And then , Im sorry.

If you people wanna talk to me , but the subject lies on study.
Then dont bother come and talk to me.
Cos I wont seriously wanna talk to you on this subject.
Just remember this Question in mind :
Will you or are you looking down on me?

--

我今天看到你了。
和你谈电话的是不是最近在陪你的人呢？
我希望你现在过得好好. ((:
(真的好想你.)

--

Elaine :
Babe, imy too.

Huanglerling :
You gone missing luis .
haha x:
seeyou soon too ! (:

Qiaohui :
Haha .
Sent! She's alright now.

Tell me how am I going to stay at that bloody school ?!
I cant even stand going there for 2hours.
:/


That ass came and talk to me today.
damn her.
Dont even give her the freaking attitude.
Say I put down your phone ?
fuck you luis. Whose phone is not talking first ?
Go and think luis hors . If I really kup your phone .
I will straight put down after I know its you.
And what for asking hows my mother.
You dont even bloody believe that she admit to hospital yesterday.
what the use asking me about her .
Dont tell me you're concern , cause I dont need yours.
If there's any , it will just worsen it.
Just dont care or talk to me , will you ?
I dont even want to treat you as my form , then you can jolly well dont treat me as your student. I dont even mind you do that , I will be more happy.


And to some teachers which I know you people treat me well ,
I'm sorry for how I'm now .
I really dont have the mood to explain to you guys what happening now.
I dont even now what going on now.
I dont have any planning . Cause I know those planning wont go as how I planned.
So there isnt any use.
Especially to Miss lee , sorry .
I know you have high hope for me .
But .. :/


mummy was admitted to hospital yesterday .
discharge today le .
haha . Hope she wont take in anything wrong again x:
takecare mum (:

--

Elaine :
Not very okay .
And-very-not-okay.
Dont worry about me .

Caizhuang :
Okay .
Anytime when I'm free x:
miss you girl .

Huanglerling :
ya lo .
my mother too.
All of a sudden ah .
haha . She fine now already , still can shout x:
thanks for concern ah.
And your mum too .
Let her rest well (:
miss you !

fuck the form teacher of mine .
you fucker, everything come towards me .
good thing here, you treat me good.
when things is not my fault, you fucking push the blame to me.
damn you.
but after today, you wont get good attitude from me.

I swear , at least I will use my life to finish this year schooling and get a N cert of mine.
But after this year , I think I wont be so silly and stay at that school which I fucking hate.
Im glad that you made that call and make me know my parents knows me.
This time , dad and mum talk to me.
I do tear out during the talk .
But , I think I should really follow what my heart goes .
And not listen to people talk.

If you think this is not last time the LIMSOCKKUAN .
YES(!) I can tell you . I changed . From bad to worse .
If you think that Im really bad , then I have no words to say and you can go ahead and stop the relationship between me and you.
No matter friendship/sistership/or whatever.

I really cannot take it le .
This is me , I cant changed to the people that you all wanted .
Im not perfect . 0% perfect .

如果你觉得我是个坏小孩，那你就把我当做是个吧。
对不起，我已尽量去当你们想要的我。
但我失败了，而已经不想再去试了。

--

Amirah :
My email : aishiteru.kisses@hotmail.com

Kaijun :
COUSIN !
You read my blog hurr . then didnt tag me till now -.-
yeah . At least from you people, I could find all these . (:

Chencaiyun :
Kay .
I think this will only last till this year ba.
Sigh .
Missing him more ? I have no idea.

Huanglerling :
OKAY DA XIAO JIE !
Lol .
Imy luis . And, ahting cant celebrate this Fri :/

Celebrated Uncle's birthday yesterday.
Met up with my cousins :D
Meeting them make me feel that there's care and concern from family.
( I seems so Lol ._. )

Gonna celebrate Jiefu's birthday tomorrow .
And my dear sister Lim ahting's birthday on Friday .
So many people birthday nowadays hurr .
Not forgetting my sister XINYI's on 31th Aug .

--

School tomorrow ..
Boring ! I very very very tired leis .
People having holidays for national day this three day .
But I'm working all along ....
:/

Finally yesterday , I could sleep .
( I think so ah. )
But dad calling to wake up stop me from sleeping .
damn.
I going to die soon le !
Hais.
I feel so kiddy kiddy now D:

--

Your presence make my heart melt.
But, your absence make my heart sank.
Sigh.
Dote on me, will you ?
imissyou boy.

--

Elaine :
Sigh .
Idk le .
Takecare .

Yanshan ; Yaya :
The song is nice right ?
haha .
iloveitmans !

Chencaiyun :
are you suree fucker ?
awwws . call you out also dont want x:
imiss(him)you leis .
xD!

Adver :
o.o
I dont visit blogshop .

I fuckingly know Imissyou like crazy .

我想你因为我爱你，可以吗?
我真的很无助。
难道真的要我每一晚都喝醉想着你？

--

And, congrats my Darl . (:

All the best, girl.

下雨天

作词：Lara
作曲：张杰
演唱：Lara

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停
期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
怎样的雨
怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

--

The song Im listening over and over again now.
Thanks to Lh for recommending us . (:
The lyrics is so meaningful to me now :/
Hais .

Sometime now, Im thinking is this the time you wanted from me?
Or what is happening ?
I dont want what happened last time to repeat again?
I seem so dead.
You say this song is emo, but who made me this so ?
Maybe I should not blame you. Cos it's not concern you ?
But at least show me you care for me hao ma ?
I dont want what happen to me all the time to happen again.
I have twice past that I cant be with the guy I love.
I dont want you to be the third. :/

If you are really going to be the third.
Tell me , cos I know Im falling deeper and deeper now.
And, I dont wish to hear that it's me the one who not contacting you from your mouth.
I know myself this time that I have tried my best to make us contacting all times.
But, you just seems like you having the dont-care attitude to me.
Maybe I think too much .
I dont know .

I need to drink these night , to make myself sleep better.
But, sometimes I still cant even go to sleep.
If really , you think she is still in your heart or what.
Dont bluff me , tell me truefully , and I will know what to do.
Sigh .

爱你真的有这么难吗？

--

Caizhuang :
GIRL !
I just gone to your blog yesterday but didnt tag x:
haha !
Imissyou tooooooo luis .
:/

Im down again . :/
I dislike this month .
It make me feel so unsecure .
Sigh .

Going out with parents soon.
Takecare people.
All the best to people who gonna have prelims soon.

--

Huanglerling :
Okayokay . I didnt say I wanted too actually.
Imy sis .

Elaine :
Go watch then . haha (:
ILY babe !
Let hope for the better (!)*

Lunar 7th Month is here ..
Sigh :/
I'm having sleepness nights these days ..
Cant even totally fall asleep even Im very very tired.

Because of this, my mood wasnt good.
Unless, Im concentrating on something.
But last two days was bad(other than when Im playing mahjong).
I apologised for my moody moody mood D:
I hope tomorrow will be a good day !

OH ! And, Im watching Money Not Enough 2 on Tuesday with my parents, auntie and grandma.
At Vivo Gold Class :D:D
(Although Im the one treating with abit sponser by my sis, but as long as they are happy Im alright with it (: )
Excited yo .
But I haven catch Batman and Red cliff yet ! :/
SIGH !

Alright , school tomorrow . And heard that in focus has been stop alrdy.
Lol.
Takecare people.

--

Amirah :
YA ! My reflected twin sister hurr .

Lim :
Choo Limhwee .
HI ! :D
LOL !

--

想念和珍惜我们在一起的每一分每一秒。
我爱你 (:

Joanne Lim
eightteen on 29/09 .
简单又平凡的女人.
Email me at : aishiteru.kisses@hotmail.com
A crew at Universal Studio Singapore! :D