Explain Love & Trust.

Saturday, September 06, 2008 | 3:31 PM

All of a sudden recently, I felt that Im such a bitch.
:/

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I know Im doing things that you dont like recently.
I know you dont like girls that are like that.
I know you dont like me being like that.
Am I right?
Sigh.

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Why cant my stress get lesser , but always increase instead?
Why I am throwing temper so easily sometime?
Why am I always getting so restless over everything so easily?
Why am I always thinking of you but I dont know what to do?
Why am I still cant convince myself that you are not angry with me?
Why am I feeling that we are having a distance?
Why whenever I see those messages, I felt that we are not the same?
But I always convince myself by lots of excuse.
Why am I changing that I dont wish to ?
Why am I having lots of problem recently?
Why I always dont know what I really want?
Why am I crying so easily every night before sleep?
Why I cant get into sleep again nowadays?
Why am I getting nightmare of you that you will go back to her?
Why I always suffering from all these problem?
Why are some people around me so carefree without any problem?
Why people around always say I wont not have any problem cause they still think Im small?
Why am I always the one doing so many weinan stuff.
Why ?
I still got alot of "Why" in my mind.
But all these "Why", they dont have a answer to it.

I once told you before I am scared to lose you and your answer back was you are scared too.
Is this answer still the same till now ?
Sigh.
I dont wish to think much about it now.
Let just concentrate on our upcoming exams.
All the best to you as I know you and your family are putting lots of hope on you for this exam.
Me too.
I wish you could do all your best , okay ?
I hope to heard good news of your result when it's out.
But will you be calling me and tell me like this year?

I hope I can stop myself from everything now.
我好想放弃全世界的东西。
我的心好痛。

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How I wish that night I was really knock down by the car ...